Skillzter07 AKA Proded One AKA The Stepover Pro AKA Han Jun Qi

One Year Older, more conundrums

2011-08-15T01:01:00.002+08:00

Yea! I'm 20 now! Good? Bad? Ah who knows?

The older you are the more social issues you seem to have to handle, gifts, relationships, responsibilities, the list just goes on!

My recent post:

I guess gift buying is too complicated a concept for me. Too cheap and you are a cheapo, to not buy anything is weird, buy something good and there us pressure to buy one in return next time... Ahhh a simple meal and just a chillaxing time is still the way to go for me!

I mean, all this fuss over people getting to 21, and the need to buy gifts, and extravagant ones at that, from what i hear ipads, fossil watches, GEEZ!!! Where does all this money come from? Call me a miser, but if gifts are the only way to convey your friendship, then this is one heckuva material world we are in! Hmm maybe coming from a boys school whereby practicality rules, gifts just seem like an alien concept to us. Giving a VJ bear when i went to a good friends concert has probably been the only real significant gift I've given, with the pack of miniature cards given to a good friend in VS a real awkward thing (guys giving guys gifts... hmm... meh!). (English really sucks now)

Heck, whatever happened to just a simple meal, or outing to celebrate a birthday! Then the birthday boy/girl can really just relax and enjoy the occasion instead of thinking how to entertain all the guests, how to repay the gift next time, or think how cheapo the gift is! After all, memories are much more beautiful and lasting than any gift right? Unless you are an amnesiac, or the gift is a diamond,which is after all, forever ;) Speaking of which, dinner with Ken, ZY and CC followed by pool was a real nice way to celebrate a double birthday! Unbeaten for 5 games in a row for pool, with 2 gifted to me via suicide ;P And those tough shots I love to try mostly coming off! Ahh... :D And of course, no gifts! ;)

At 20, the fact I've been a happy bachelor all the way with my only long term infatuation being the game of soccer ( Manchester United just won 2-1!!!) seems to be weird too. Then again, why should I invest time and emotions unless I'm really interested in being with the person? All these stories of getting into a relationship just for the "benefits", like showing off, free sex, yeah sure, not sure its something I'll look back on and say I'm proud of! So nope, I'll take my time on this! Gotta be a decent person out there just waiting to be found right? If there isn't, well so be it! As long as I live by my principles, no regrets!

Of course, there will always be a twinge whenever you see good friends in beautiful relationships, but i guess I must admit that I am still nowhere near mature enough for that anyway! So just sit back, admire them, and only join their ranks when the right one comes!

First Ever Half Marathon!!!

2011-07-25T05:00:00.002+08:00

2 Hrs 30 Mins

Or thereabouts XD

Thats how long i took to complete the Marina 21K! What a pleasant surprise! And the fact that i jogged non stop till around 15KM makes it even more of a surprise! Especially when taking into account the fact my max prior to this was a measly 8Km! Add to that the fact I finished ahead of Matt And Jia Han who did train prior to this, and I can say that this was a race where i exceeded all my expectations! To think I started it just hoping to finish within 4 hours!

Pleasant run overall i guess, running at night meant it was nice and cooling, Add to that the uplifting music from Gundam, Nelly Furtado, Hot Shot, Slam Dunk and some other songs i had specially selected, i felt like i could have run all the way were it not for thirst and a cheapskate mentality to not waste the free drinks ;)

Of course what would be a run without kooky participants?

A guy wearing a Singlet with words: "I don't mind you overtaking me now, I'll catch up to you later!" ; a woman with blinking lights on her shoes; a man with a crown of light up sticks...

PFFFFTTT

2011-04-09T01:09:00.002+08:00

Life is really boring nowadays. Camp life just gives me a sense of deja vu. Booking in, doing clerk stuff and Sai Kang (geez i just attract this eh? ORBAT Chart, Filing, Cleaning...), then booking out. All the while trying not to let anyone notice me. Grah!

While i have never craved attention, i do seek appreciation. If i finish my stuff, and can be seen slacking, its cos i have earned it! I don't need you to come and say wah slack ah? Nothing to do ah? Worse still, talk back and i lose not just due to rank, but due to bias. ARGH!!! My racial jokes are starting to become less like jokes and more like facts to me, which is a bad sign, after all same ratio in driver course, totally different atmosphere! There, we were one big happy family. Here, unless you smoke/ speak malay, your jokes = you talk too much ( probably cos its in the "wrong" language). Then you have the cheek to say i don't join in?

Haix, at least with most of my own section mates ( mates as in friends not that bullshit mate ie people you stand and smile at while wishing to kick their ass) like Fik, Ful, Shah and Yann, I still can talk to them as friends. The rest? meh

Truth is, most of em ain't that bad, just my luck the influential AKA loud ones are... Empty vessels make the most noise indeed!

Haix I guess first impressions count too... Spilling Oil, being viewed as the Blue Eyed Baby of our MTT who isn't well respected( or liked), coming back from BM course with excuse boots, ah wells no point crying over spilt milk. I'll just SAF ( serve and F off) after all TIA

Being the only Chinese next week is gonna BURN! Ahh as Daughtry says be careful what you wish for, co you just might get it all, and then some you don't want. M^? Tay going to BMT means that its more fair ( based on this thinking i have about fairness and honour which has seriously caused me a lot of trouble and that i need to reduce) but also means meals alone, booking in/out alone... ah wells thank god i ain't that sensitive bout being alone eh?

But being sensitive and liking it is different! I hate being alone( for too long)! having always had small but close friends instead of big groups of friends due to my tendency to feel responsible for them in some way. (ie smaller group less ppl to worry about); as well as being better able to know each and everyone well. ( all the better for suaning)[ all my close friends will experience it, kinda my screwed up way of showing i care{ ie i know these little quirks about you that i can make fun off cos i bother to notice em!!! ;) }] And from the above, my tendency to sidetrack and think too much, pfft getting away from the point now

ANYWAY the gist? Camp life sux, cos i can't talk freely, am a minority that is not really accepted or part of their otherwise very close knit family, and am freaking lonely! All these kill you when you are a mischievous bugger who is forced to keep it all in.

Which kinda makes you think

How many PERSONALITIES can a person have without going Psycho?

I have the Good boy persona many ppl notice when i'm in a weird place, ie quiet, well behaved agreeable

Also the mad man persona when with close friends, ie cheeky, talkative

With certain friends, i can think and discuss stuff quite deeply though once in a while i'll throw in the odd random observation ( just me! ;))

When i see ppl who need more care or need help, the Older Brother personality appears, ie i explain stuff slowly, help, try to make them comfortable

When i see ppl bullying or being an asswipe to others or abusing power( pet peeve) and i'm in a position to sort it out (or not), i juz go in and own them with words or pointing out their actions or flaws in a very personal and sarcastic manner, and let as many ppl know as possible. IE taste of their own medicine X2

When working, i can get super concentrated and not do any frivolous activities at all, which is kinda unlike me.

And yet if i hate what i am tasked to do, the slacker appears. Even so, i will do the task as quickly as possible!

Kinda makes you wonder eh? After all I'm sure I'm not the only one and am as sure that I have more weird personas than those listed above!

Ahh, is this under Psychology? or should i follow my passion and go into sports?

Messed up post eh?

Might as well throw a Rhyme/ Poem in then!

Solo
In Camp
Solo
God damn

Life's a bore
Works a Chore
sitting down weakens my core
while being treated like a whore

What to do
Boo Hoo Hoo
If only i can fling the Poo
Right back at Bur-lahhh-dee you

Yeah Random Shizz alright!

Counting my blessings

2011-03-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

Ahh wells, NS NS NS it dominates my time but thankfully not my life. Hmmm does it even make sense?

I guess I gotta be thankful that my parents have seriously relaxed their control on when i can watch matches. Now at least weekends and certain midweeks give me something to look forward to!

Of course, having almost weekly soccer sessions never hurt. I can now claim to be able to dribble past ppl! No mean feat compared to what i was able to do in the past. Of course being kinda forced to play as striker helps. And thankfully i trained my right outside foot. hehe cutting in from the left ala Nani is shiok! means i can shoot with my right foot from the optimum position. Now to work on my crossing on the run

Better yet, no more stress fracture! Bone Scan confirmed it, though i still have stress caused injuries in the region due to my now known wrong gait ( really common actually)
haha benefit? Excuse boots so i can wear my custom insoles that cost 246 bucks! XD
tho i dunno if i really wanna be a clerk till now. BORING!
but being a non smoker doin groundwork and not knowing malay? BORING TOO!
haix

Which brings me to next point: I'm on course now! :D though it ends next week =/
Ahh working in groups, ppl who are friendly and chatty( ORD mood for them really makes ppl so... zen! ) damn i'll miss this when i go back. Hope i get sent out again! Heck I'll even go for driving course encore!

And of course saw CANTONA IN THE FLESH!!! PELE TOO! haha Pele is only my height! Kinda makes me feel bad for using my height as an excuse for my average sporting ability

Ahh nice few days. Long may it continue!

Army Narmy Barmy

2011-02-06T18:56:00.002+08:00

Grrr as I finally pass the one year mark in army, it seems like this whole year is just gonna be a drag unless i do something about it. And the something is probably one which i won't enjoy doin (downpes, Chao geng too much etc) Note: I do chao geng, anyone who doesn't is a fool :P But not too much lah!

Camp life is such a drag. Soon to be the only chinese as well as non smoking technician means that unless i miraculously master malay or join in the lung destroying activity, i will probably be stuck solo...

Everyday is just report to camp, do work on some vehicle then juz wait for dismissal... Probably utter less than 6 sentences a day?!?! Geez, guess i shoulda taken up the MO's offer to downpes instead of listen to my darn pride and stayed on in the course! Ah wells, at least i will be trainin myself to work more or less alone and independently yadda yadda eh?

ORD juz can't come soon enough

NS in 2010 Lite version

2011-01-03T02:09:00.002+08:00

What a year 2010 has been eh? NS life has been mad, with quite a few unexpected events. After all, how many people can claim to have visited over 10 camps despite not being an MP?

Feb to May: Tekong for BMT with none other than Leopard company!

Followed by Glouchester camp 2 for 3 TPT BN

Next Sembawang camp for stay in during driving; and of course Kaki Bukit camp for driving, with a visit to Nee Soon camp in between when my buddy fell sick at night!

Post OOC, a visit to Glouchester Camp 1 for a YOG related meeting, and a visit to SAFTI MI for SAF day.

After YOG, off to Ayer Raja camp for training at OETI, which shifted to Kranji Camp 3 mid-course. Reporting sick and dental meant visits to Kranji Camp 2.

Completing the course and receiving my next posting at 9AMB, i went to Selarang camp, whereby i was posted to Pasir Ris Camp! Here i thought my journey ended, but what do I know? Apparently we are also supposed to help out at Hendon Camp! So... You know the rest ;)

Haha mad huh?

Not to mention the other random stuff that always seems to happen around me, but always comes in a deluge instead of a steady stream, kinda like Berbatov's goals eh? :)

Here's to 2011 being less of a madcap year eh? Though knowing me for me, you just never know! XD

What I really should get used to doing and really suck at...

2010-12-12T01:04:00.002+08:00

No matter how much I try to convince myself, occupy my time, with the right stimulus... It comes back again...

And the fact my record of consecutive matches has been broken doesn't help! ( juz gotta put that in here)

Dissatisfaction

2010-11-21T01:28:00.002+08:00

Ah long journeys and ample free time, they just tend to make you sit back and reflect don't they?
what have i really done this year?

And to be honest? Nothing of note, nothing to really shout about.

NS life now is just sooo blank! Being diagnosed with a double stress fracture will be manna from heaven for some. I tried to console myself with that thought, but just watching people take IPPT and only 1 , yes 1, guy getting silver makes me just wish i could have at least attemped it. Heck, i would give myself a 30% chance to have boosted that tally by 100%! ;) Instead, i had to be content with helping out at a checkpoint and see most people strolling around on the 2.4km run. =.= Ironic that i aggravated this apparently old injury training for IPPT, only to be denied even a shot at it! ARRGGHHH!!!

Visiting the physio and hearing her explain what the X ray meant was kinda scary. My bones were mainly of the soft variety. NOT GOOD. After all, that is how the site of the fracture is. So, in another way, my whole shin is like one big stress injury. Eesh! Looks like i'm gonna have to downpes, which leaves me with boring clerical work, which incidentally involves working with the chao gengs. Not my cup of tea... Ah wells, my health has to come first, especially if i wanna play soccer. Just let me finish my course first, I ain't gonna OOC from this one! And i haven't even mentioned how the therapy has left me feeling pain for 2 days now. And i haven't even done any at home!

And i realise I have been more emo these days too. Sometimes withdrawing into myself. Living in the moment and seemingly dying when there is a lack of stuff to do. Geez... I'm still doing the same stuff, pulling pranks, being mischiebous and all, but it feels just insufficient somehow!

Maybe I'm just lacking something in my life.

What are we really here for?

2010-10-14T09:17:00.002+08:00

Here i am at the polyclinic again. Exactly one week after my accidental discovery of those stress fractures... This time just for a puny headache and dizziness that i normally would just shrug off and not allow to interfere with proceeding on with the days activities... But i guess times change and people change huh. I would label thos as chao keng in the past. Now? I kinda don't care so much anymore.
I keep telling myself not to get worked up over unfairness or stupidity that I will inevitably encounter in daily life. especially NS. Yet... it seems doing so has only made me apathetic at times or over-reactive! I guess now is an apathetic moment. I just can't be bothered to report to camp at an ungodly hour just to do absolutely nothing, spending 4 bucks just on transport alone...
Lately this has been happening a lot too! I guess that's why people fear having too much free time. your mind wanders and you end up thinking too much and overanalysing stuff. being tge random guy I am I guess I'm presently dealing with it by reporting sick at the polyclinic and finding out solutions for my minor problems. I guess the somewhat peaceful solitude I get here helps too!
I just can't pit a finger on the origin of all this angst. after all I finally have a group of friends who are living in the same vicinity and hence travelling is no longer the lonely business it once was!I have even more football kakis than before. the people around are of the relaxed and fun variety. help my injury has been with me for so long I'm not even affected by it in any significant way despite its supposed serousness. So what is it that is bothering me?
Maybe its really just me? Perhaps I demand more of myself. perhaps seeing most of my friends in more army like vocations, or rising up the ranks, going through tough but cool courses I wanted to go through but never got a chance to has left me questioning myself in ways I rarely or never did before! is it really the excuse loud noise that held me back or izzit just me? is it possible that my friends were just being nice by expressing their surprise at my exclusion from such courses? Maybe I am not as good as I make myself out to be! Yet in the back of my mind, I know self doubt does nowt, so I stop myself, but then I begin again. I guess I live not so much for the moment, but only in the moment, and just exist in the meantime. doing nothing of note or importance, whileing time away, secretly fearing and hating all the nothingness.

Restlessness
Thine enemy art thou
yet in weakness
made shalt be vows
to put such moments behind bars
and be bothered by this no more.

EXCUUUSE ME!!!

2010-10-08T01:42:00.003+08:00

Hmm isn't it ironic? I look at people with a whole bunch of excuses and label them chao keng if they look fine and do not look in any particular discomfort. Now... I am among these people! Excused a whole load of stuff for 3months due to bi tibial fractures

Going to the polyclinic yesterday to get pimple cream( another story) and a referral to see a specialist for my chronic shin pain, I was stunned by the doctor's enthusiasm to send me for a specialist! oh big pimple? wanna see skin centre? 0.o obviously I gave her the eyebrow and said no.... then I asked about my ankle( not a typo) and she was like ok go cgh sports medicine. Bingo! finally a referral, especially since I wanted it looked into since jc but waited till army cos it was free! ( haha just getting my gst back :P)

So off I went to the friendly Chinese-eurasian looking Malay physiologist. he did some physical examinations then asked me to go for an x ray for my shin. ( To cut a long story short, I had somehow managed to ask about my shin and stuff after his initial queries bout my ankle :P)

Post x ray, he showed me the digital copy( wow I din know they now did that! ), which revealed that both shine had stress fractures! like wth right? start with ankle, incidentally fine), end up realising I have been living with shin fractures for some time! urgh... No wonder I felt pain after every run!

So now I have become a member of the chao keng brigade I guess. heck I can be a senior member! excuse lower limb, running, marching, jumping, heavy load, prolonged standing, sentry duty ( YAY!!! ), and IPPT ( NOOOO, MY $100!!!!) Oh ya not to mention that stupid excuse loud noise environment,explosives , and er something else... But this comes with a real heavy price besides that $100, I'm not supposed to play soccer, badminton or even jog for 3 months! 0.o

Irony? Hell yeah.

The screwed up day today was

2010-10-02T19:41:00.003+08:00

So far so diao

Today was my Bro's B'Day, happy birthday kiddo!

BUT it was also a day my parents got into one of their stupid arguments over some small matter that they blow up and affect the whole family. =.=

So as usual, me and my bro have to act as the mediator. fine more of me. my bro is just my emotional support. after all he's kinda autistic so.... yea

Basically we had a very screwed up b day celebration lunch. it was too early in the mornin for such shit to me... and the whole atmosphere juz sucked. my bro being who he is, just enjoyed his food and i juz did my usual thing and acted happy... yeah right. look at the photos my parents insisted on taking and my eyes give me away. ever seen happy cum pissed? yea that was it all right...

Geez, if only i could be my bro. innocent and carefree. Ah to be free from worries and just be himself. No facades or acts from him which is how i sometimes wish i could be...

After all my life till now can hardly be considered normal. Being somewhat mature for my age when young meant that even my parents used me to let go of their emotions, even now they still do. My dad when to work overseas, so for a few years i was kinda the man of the house. So at all times i had to keep up this "yea i'm great" show so i don't add on to their worries. Being able to read people naturally doesn't help too. throw in the fact that while i'm no only child, after all, my bro is more like my child! and i kinda see why i never really know who i am and am always guarded about my feelings!

After all, in such a situation, what can you do? If you let it out, people worry for you. And gawd knows they also have enough on their plates. Pride and independence also makes it harder to allow people in anyway. Yet besides dealing with all my problems myself, i also gotta deal with other people's problems!

Haix, maybe i should juz stop acting so strong and just be one of them normal guys who whine and generally spoil the mood. After all doing this just means that sooner or later i'll burst... again and its never pretty. Like a solid hour hammering the ball against the wall till my leg bled and i continued anyway...

No man is an island, but sometimes don't you feel like one?

Some Songs that affect you depending on your mood

2010-10-02T19:03:00.002+08:00

Who am I?

2010-09-26T01:26:00.001+08:00

around different people, you behave differently
that is common and not much to worry
yet the difference is sometimes kinda scary
especially when you think through it deeply
and start to wonder who are we ...really?

is it a facade? is it a show? do we even have multiple personalities?
will we forget who we really are? or is that what we actually are?
from introvert to extrovert; from leader to follower; from talker to listener... the list goes on...

is there really such a thing as finding yourself? or is it just maintaining the side of yourself that is most socially acceptable or perhaps the one you are most comfortable with or proud of?

Times in army so far

2010-09-18T14:44:00.003+08:00

BMT:
The most fun and interesting part of army so far! For a person who lives for the moment, this was just brill. shooting, grenades, route marches( ok i hated it, but the chance to do random mods to songs is juz shiok!), stupid stuff you do in bunk. ahhhhhh... not to mention the only real physical training i had in the whole army so far! 0.o pull-ups reached 15 with more possible if the PTI hadn't stopped me during final IPPT T.T

Leopard FTW!!! turn check bang check left right left bang LEPAK!!!!

Boosted my belief in myself to no end i guess. realised that i could do most stuff A ok :)

posted to 3 TPT BN as a driver. real disappointment when i see some of those who make it to sispec... but i guess excuse loud noise meant it was a miracle i'm pes b and could check out the real BMT so still nt bad overall. heck i was not even allowed to shoot or throw grenades so thanks SGT jumali and Warrant thong for letting me do these!

Driving course:
a real mixed bag. tortorous book outs on late sat afternoons resulting in less than 24hr book outs >.< first time driving a vehicle. drove a truck for probably the only time in my life. made friends from all sorts of backgrounds instead of the normal so called educated people. heck these were the most random guys man! but failed driving test a whopping 8 times.
1: on the way back then...missed a van during my turn and stopped a bit late
2: squeezed in and was so pissed by that darn tester i beat a red light to freak him out further
3:All the way swee, then i kept left so no reason and obstructed traffic to go back on the right lane
4: uneventful
5: squeezed in again! complimented on my driving ( best of the day but too confident =.=) but still...
6: random tekan
7: forgot to on the headlights =.= karma and real retarded moment
8: bastard tester juz wanted to fail me insisting i had almost clipped a car at least 3 m behind me...

Fitness drastically dropped and had a freaky encounter while running at night with those LARC V guys... brrr

OOC:
Attached to HQ just confirmed to me clerk life is not for me. I live for the moment! So Slacking is good but not in such mad doses. OOCing just as the world cup KO stages started was good. My first proper world cup! :) Attached as RSM PA gave me an insight into how army works. Not too impressed though to tell the truth. A relative military noob with no training asked to create restricted documents and RAC forms for YOG?!?! An honour i guess, but still kinda weird. esp as the only reason i was chosen? GP got A 0.o

Realised that i could be pretty capable and able to handle these superiors. so boosted my self confidence a fair bit.

YOG:
PVS OPS EXCECUTIVE. muah haha. erm but i juz sit in the carpark and report to OPS room about vehicles exiting... quite a cool moment i guess. the first YOG and i'm involved! now how many can say that? civi life too! way to burn part of my 1yr 10 months in army ;) reunited with those LARC V guys again :)
Exit dudes: Joshua, Jackson, Brandon, Tuck Wai, Calvin, Trevor.
Haha one heck of a moment was tricking James into staying in his position by imitating OPS RM. EPIC!!!! haha pairing 2 random fools like me and joshua will give you that ;)
Visting the istana and walking around inside was cool too. though the actual building is still a mystery.
Tempered near the end by my sudden revocation and an incident involving a missing phone...
And showed my flair for getting free stuff. YOG umbrella anyone? ;) and bryan took one of my umbrellas too or i would have had 2!

Learned to control people and stand my ground.

Celebration was kinda cool. UNIVERSAL STUDIOS FTW!!! Don't understand why so many didn't wanna go. but still Laffy, Joshua, Xian Fong( new sec comm and ex leopard same platoon o.0) and YY meant i was able to go pure crazy AKA pure me ;) Nice ending to my time with these guys i guess. All the best guys! Wish Wee Min AKA Michael could have made it tho. he woulda loved it...

OETI:
Ok only a short while there but already made some brill friends! haha so long since i had friends same year as me living in the same area. weird huh... haha seeing another side of army with the uber excuses: excuse sunlight anyone? or how about MCs for various reasons over 2 weeks? how a bout 4 specialist appointments in 1 day for 1 ankle that is more or less ok? unbullievahble!
And finally had physical training! Pull up count? Cui! like only 5 plus a bit now? learning to maintain vehicles i used to drive is a real irony too!

shall edit as things change

Stuff I realised that i didn't know

2010-09-04T18:15:00.002+08:00

I always saw myself as a sui bian kinda guy. After all, i normally let others decide where to eat, what to do and stuff. But during one of my conversations with Brandon, he commented that i am actually a bloody opinionated guy with rather fixed viewpoints that are not easily noticed! And on reflection i guess this is true too. I have rarely if ever agreed to do stuff which go against my principles(which are getting to be a bit too much). Heck, i normally will do what i wanna do whether you like it or not! And in discussions with people, you do have to be someone who is very convincing or someone i really trust to ever change my opinion on things. Heck, even after 2 whole hours telling me the roles and difficulties faced by SGTS and LTs (yea right), i still maintained and in fact reinforced my view that it wasn't that much of a big deal. After all i come from a UG, that was much tougher than this army nonsense even though it was ONLY red cross! lol, i kinda people who wanna make me change my views sometimes. they put so much effort in, then... i say another opposing statement! The looks on their faces can be so priceless too! :P that uber du lan face when they realise they failed! especially if they had a smug face just momemnts earlier when i nod my head in mock agreement! lol sometimes i just act like i agree to save both our times, then do what i wanna later.

then again, i must say that i am a bit too easy to influence from my close friends. i mean taking history in sec school cos my cousin took it, supporting united cos he does so. taking econs cos most of my friends were. hell! i mean even psychology is due to a conversation with YJ where he preached to me ( successfully) how it will be more useful esp as the world is so stressful nowadays!

Another weird thing i notice, i am a bit too ready to help my friends even if it means giving up something for myself... its a good trait i guess, after all most of my good friends have this! but i gotta stop doing this for ALL friends. after all, not everyone is selfless even to friends. Kinda explains why i hate army so much i guess. This " care for soldiers" is totally bull st*&. I have seen so many of my friends suffer unnecessarily. those who make it are those who wayang and care only for themselves. Coming from a ug where we do not leave any man behind is a mantra to us, this is disappointing TTM.

I am a sucker for fairness, at all costs sometimes =/ I kinda get pissed unnecessarily when certain things happen even if its to ppl i don't even know! like juz frens of friends or smthing like that. another thing that ns made me realise.

I also keep my true feelings hidden too much. i may be moping or feeling really down. But i always put on this happy or brave face. for what? i don't know! partly cuz i'm a guy and guys have to be.... yeah u know lah ;) and i hate my friends to worry bout me. A moment that sticks in my mind is when i just failed driving and OOCed. most were stunned at how happy i was. heck ,i was dying inside lah. Only the IC ( Cpl Sim) saw that i was actually damn sad and talked to me and helped me to release some emotions. Maybe cos i am the older bro and the only guy at home for a few years when my dad worked overeas? But i tend to put on this bold front so people don't have to worry bout me...

Which also means when i cannot take it, i gets kinda ugly. Kicking a ball so hard, repeatedly, that my toes bled; not being able to sleep for a few days in a row. my old methods i guess. thank god for rediscovering poems or rhymes to be more accurate. no wonder artists are so emo. your best works really come when you release your emotions in the form of words or art!

I also seem to be an agony aunt for my close friends. People normally approach me for advice! i dunno why too! heck i have gotten people askin me stuff relating to relationships when i've been a single guy all my life! ( proud of it, yet wouldn't mind a change :P) family issues, studies... haha maybe cos i'm a good listener? spending a few hours listening and only uttering a few words are real common for me sometimes lol. But its kinda good too, knowing that they feel better after it. though the fact i get pissed off at unfairness and stuff mean that i kinda become a container for their grievances that gets filled up but rarely empties!

I guess i'm one of those poeple who does not do large groups. I mean, looking back , most of my gatherings consist of around 3-6 people? any larger, and i normally talk less, listen more. but in these small groups i suddenly speak a lot more, can crack those lame jokes and do all those impersonations even in public! or to be more accurate, be myself. hmm still ,i gotta improve and learn to be more... myself? in larger groups.

I am also much more confident about myself than in the past. haha those years in a boys school was great, but that coupled with the fact that all bar 1 of my cousins are male meant that i was far too nervous around girls in JC. In fact its kinda easy to spot the boys school guy lol. he's either spending too much time with girls, or too nervous and weird around them. Thankfully i think i've gotten over this nonsense now. organising people and stuff are also much easier now than in the past where i just wanted to hide one corner! ironic that i can credit NS a bit for this. After all, i see the people who get in sispec, KNOW i'm much better than most of them, and kinda determined to prove myself.

I also have weird ways to be motivated. My strongest motivators are to beat someone i can't stand or someone i respect a lot! Esp true in VS. my poor PSLE grades and the incopetency demonstrated by some who scored better made me super determined to pwn em in O's. and i got 6 points. Same rule when running 2.4km or cross country. only if someone i can't stand passes me, then i suddenly have reserves of energy just to beat them. weird i say

one last thing, i'm really lazay, so though i still got more, i shall stop now.

Kinda crazy how all that free time in NS allows you to reflect and realise how much you have changed and have become form what you thought you were.

My darkest day

2010-08-27T13:46:00.003+08:00

I've been so down,

I've never had such a frown

It is my last day in this town

Yet i see us being ordered around by a bloody clown

I'll miss these guys

These lovers( and haters) of oily fries

Whose tests required so many tries

Cos of you i'm trying not to cry

A new chapter in Army

The organistion manned by Jabroni

Its 2 years too many

That i'm sure you'll all agree

To think that i left gaily

despite the turmoil emotionally

A brave face externally

While i was dying internally

Those photos i took the last two days

I'll cherish forever and always

The times we spent like gays

To you i'll raise a glass of Chardonnay

Juz crazy how this darn thing actually calmed me down more than mindless kicking of walls or screaming did. thanks to a someone, ok actually someone-sssss for helping me rediscover my old hobby of rhyming stuff and hence allow me to release my emotions that i otherwise keep inside and allow to keep eating at myself, till i explode when a big trigger occurs!

Geez i mean, how can a superior hence forth known as Inferior(inf) demand that we return back just because he lost his phone that was indented for him? His problem became our problem juz like that. what's worse is that most of us had just got home or were planning to go out... talk about inconsiderate egoistic Bas^&**. Better still, scolding us to find it instead of staying in the ops room when most of us were already damn pissed. Hello, just because we are forced to serve army for 2 years doesn't mean we are dogs to be ordered around like &^^(ing free labour. Pls slaves get more dignity and respect...

In fact, it is pretty visible how nonsensical this situation is. on the day of my revoc, Inf saw me, ignored me and told someone else to inform me about my revoc, All in front of me! WTF man. so juz cos i'm gonna be leaving means i'm insignificant and not deserving of respect? NVM, maybe it was a bad day due to certain stuff occuring. Fine, i'm training my tolerance.

BUT, on my last day, asking Inf for his signature so i could officially leave the unit, he looked at me like i was a retard and said: you dunno ah, this thing is everone sign le, then you ask me sign one. Got procedure, you dunno ah? Geez, i'm sure i'm an expert on such matters you SOAB. i don't expect any sympathy or even a handshake or a good luck. juz sign it and go. NO! WTF man. In comparison, the other people who needed to authorise it gave no such airs and were at least concerned as to why i'm revocating.

To think Inf gave such a nice impression of himself during my time at HQ. I could see the arrogance though, but i juz shrugged it off. such as when he looked incredulously at me when i claomed i had no laptop or external hard disk. Oh so, everyone is supposed to ahve such stuff in this day and age? well FU understand. You army ppl are SO darn out of touch with the world its pathetic. Honestly, if a real war came? Good luck guys, i'll rather fight alongside a dog. At least it'll be loyal.

Which brings me to the next point, 2 things that i really learned from army?

Do wahtever you want, juz dun get caught. AND

Cover your ass, no matter who you implicate.

Haix, not exactly good things are they?

In reflection though, these were my thoughts when i only had 2 hours of sleep in2 days and was darn emo bout leaving these friends i have made. then agin, the lack of sleep meant i may not be thinking straight, yet it also means i probably have a view that i'm not subconsciously trying to beautify for myself to feel better.

Rant over

Shiokest 2 days!

2010-08-22T20:08:00.002+08:00

Haha this YOG lark does have its benefits! Organising all these meetings and reunions are juz so shiok!

Sat was mornin shift thank gawd. so can join Ben, Chang, Swee and WSA for badminton! and wearing that YOG shirt there juz made me a target for jokes ( hey YOG official! hey YOG athelete!) =.= bunch of bastards ;). haha but except WSA i can beat all of em! haha first time i was KING!!! table tennis and soccer is juz their domain, at least i finally found mine :) Then a meal at the round market and a walk to simei and chat :) happy! next target to beat WSA! my smash is now totally lousy... :( haix my racquet isn't the same after restringing! Nooo BLACK DRAGON!!! haha but its still good :)

Sun was hectic
Table tennis at VS at 9 was... FAIL
VS stairs not open in the first place and everyone came late... haix... oh well at least its another meet up!
Then while JC class havin outing... i unknowingly organised a PAE class outing! :P Martin did his usual thing which left me with Cheryl and Wan Zhen. GG lol, one guy and 2 gals. Kena arrow again! Geez, now i'm sec 2 boy... diaoz
haha but i'm the best again! haha gonna get big headed at this rate! my cuz's teaching me badminton juz owns! i think i improve a lot each time i play with him! though i kinda bore him a bit cos he's too good =/
ok damn random liao lol

Oh ya i only had 1 proper meal today T.T skip breakfast to meet up on time, skip lunch to meet them on time, so only had popeyes at 4 plus! geez... and i still ate very slow! haix, what happened to my appetite???

Finally a rant?

2010-08-19T16:25:00.002+08:00

Jeez the lack of sleep this few days has caused me to almost snap today...

What's with these old fogeys walkin past and showing their leadership by asking us to do inane stuff when we have completed our tasks and juz wanna relax and do our own stuff? Haix... Jealous of our efficiency or something? Tsk tsk

Then insisting we must send ppl to collect stuff since they are on break. Erm isn't break = break?
When did it become Break Time= lets Break em by asking em to do inane and frankly redundant stuff Time? Lucky most of us are willing to cover each other. though i feel like such a heel for admittin that my friends were playin pooleven if its only to a fellow carpark guy and not a superior ( darn i wanna call em inferiors) then later trying to cover for them and say they were havin lunch! sleep deprived stupidity!!!

And those who juz are plain suck ups... _l_
if you dun wanna help, fine... dun rub it in! i can take it if its in a jokin way, not if its a humour-the-inferior way. Anw its my last few days seeing them...

juz realised that i'll probably lose all my YOG leave too! doubt they will be so nice as to ask my new unit to give me any offs for the weekends burned thanks to YOG.

At least the policemen are nice. regulars and reservist kids( ok adults) alike :) thnks to the sgt for helpin us get fans for our area, unlike the lip service we receive elsewhere >.>

OK rant over. wasn't that pissed to begin with anw, juz... frustrated with how grown men act like kids... As my leopard sgt says : you guys are F^*^ed Up! how can you lead your men liddat?

So far so hmm

2010-08-17T02:53:00.002+08:00

With anticipation
Yet trepidation
I am here to serve the nation
To put me as a darn technician
What's it mean about my qualification?
Those long years of education
This is its culmination?
All those years of expensive tuition
I sigh at its ultimate fruition
As army serves to create friction
Using lingo with poor diction
How i wish these were just fiction
A figment of my imagination.

Geez i came up with this lump in 10 minutes? haha how bored and frustrated i was i guess doing carpark duty... Today was just a hmm... shock to the system? Entered the ops room a while and boom! OC walks past, looks at me and tells the seniors that they better dun owe me Off cos i got maintenance course on 30 Aug, revocated as technician... WTF?!?! hmm why din he tell me to my face anw zzz... I was juz erm stunned for i dunno how long before i started askin how izzit.
Verdict? very mixed. My fellow OOCs are jealous, my seniors say good luck, mand most imptly , my cuz says its not too good bar the free sgt rank. is this my reward for ranting about not getting sgt rank when i see ppl who don't deserve it getting it? i dunno. but it sux to have to start makin frens all over again >.< heck, its stay out, so how many friends/ and how much more spending?
oh well watchin united now so continue next time

YEA 3-0!!!

ok now with a better mood lo lolz

Anw carpark ops so far is kinda ok i guess. lots of time to do stuff with not many ppl monitoring you! Depending on the ppl with you, can do shifts so i could go to times and read mags for an hour plus! GUUS ah! Afternoon shift ain't too bad in terms of freedom. playing with the comms and tricking my friend to stay when he could leave... haha James :P guess i still have it! :) only drawback? ventilation is switched off at 7pm so till 11 is kinda stuffy and its 1400 to 2300

mornin shift is more strict i guess, big shots around= cannot fool with comms too but its from 0745 to 1530 or now changed to 0700 to 1500 but can secretly supsoup at 1400 :P

note: supsoup means short sharp and sweet, but can mean leaving, a curse, erm basically its the alternative to F^*& though i probably already used F^*^ a few times already so i dun see why i gotta censor it ;)

On further reflection, this revoc may not be too bad, i hope and stay out means i can follow united properly! oh well hope springs eternal i guess

As for frienDs life wise, its good i guess, all this free time juz made me miss em more; and more able to organise meetings :) Badminton this sat AND sun! first with the dinner club ppl and WSA
then with JC PAE ppl lawl. costs seem ridiculous though. 7.4 per hour? at schools? there better be nets!

YOG ops so far...

2010-08-04T17:56:00.004+08:00

Ok, so i guess i kinda overhyped it up for myself. cuz so far its been real slack and easy! though its darn confusing that i am first an ops rm personnel, then a lobby personnel and now a carpark exit dude. =.=lll

Uniforms have also been received. A garish purple tight fit shirt (thank gawd i'm thin) and chino's with a too large waist pouch that will just fit me at the thinnest configuration( maybe cos my waist size actually dropped to 26"?!?( no wonder i'm not a driver, no built in spare tyre :P)) as well as a cap. But the best part? A debit card that also doubles as an ez link card that offers free transport from 10 to 28 Aug! The food vouchers also dun hurt ;) Mac's (yeah!!!) and Koufu (Hmmm....) this is dran important considering how expensive the food around the ritz is! $5 for a wonton mee that tastes great admittedly but is of a puny serving. hiax how to gain weight liddat?

Oh well that's all i guess. hope i din speak too soon. ( I have an unhappy habit of always doing so anw!)

Side stuff:
My appetite is weird nowadays. I either can't finish my food or feel hungry after a meal... Darn it!

jumbled up

2010-08-02T01:53:00.002+08:00

Hmm what an interesting week to say the least

On tues, had to go to kranji camp to help load 400++ ammo boxes onto a LARC!!! and some were filled to the brim with sand!! wts xia, thank gawd for the fact there were other guys to help!
" haiyo! so skinny also ask to come help us load ah?!?" LOL at this comment when i was strugggling to load a esp heavy box! and the scorpion that fell out of 1 of the boxes was kinda cool too! reminicise about pri sch days and all that bug catching

best of all, only half day used! so went to catch Inception(Finally!) with Michael. haha kinda funny when u think of 2 guys in smart 4 goin to catch a movie! it was great i guess though overrated in the fact it got 5 stars! more of a 4 i guess

fast forward to fri and both of us went to watch the YOG opening ceremony rehearsal. kinda weird that i got so many 2 guy outings... hiax boys school and a warm up period in jc does that to you...
OK main points: NO GOODIE BAG OR FIREWORKS!!! kinda means no point goin lol. screens which showed blah blah blah video should be playing juz made it 0.o and the atmosphere was flat too lol. pity the emcees. and if the actual is like this? Confrim singapore's 1 and only yog lol

Sat was interesting i guess. Planning a meeting to visit my jc math tutor kinda failed. 1st she wasn't around, then ppl i contacted mostly couldn't turn up!!! haha in the end only me and my PAE classmate met! even so i really enjoyed it ,though felt kinda bad cos i kinda made a promise long ago to ask her along to visit our tuition teacher! Dinner at mos burger whereby i ate less than her! (she finished my fries lol) then a random stroll round all the malls kinda was it. haha can't believe we chatted for so long lol. kinda rare that i will talk so much, though it was mostly NS stuff :P

Sun was almost the same. met her again this time with Darrell. And as usual with ganzik, can't get a word in edgewise! haha he's NS stories and info are so diff to mine! I kinda wonder how she felt cos we were almost always talkin bout ns! i rmb i was interested, then couldn't stand it when my seniors kept doin that last year during our regular outings!!! speaking of which i gotta find time to meet up with em again! our dinner club is goin from weekly to fortnightly to monthly and now randomly but rare events :( But all in all a pleasant meet up. gonna plan a proper one after this YOG thing. gotta get noel along too, then we can really attack ganzik like old times! hehe

now is the jumbled stuff:

Anime or comics i'll complete before ns ends:

Prince of tennis (done)
Inuyahsa(halfway)
Dragonball (kai, Z and original)

My emotions seem more easily swayed now too. watchin A Walk to Remember almost brought a tear to my eye. certain scenes in Inuyasha can make me feel sad. hmm is this maturity? or lack of sleep and that darn chalazion in my eye? hehe juz had to put that chim word in!

And YOG ops starts today!!! OMG OMG OMG better sleep liao lol
hope its slack and not tiring! but m resigned to my weekends being burned which mean s no meetings with frens for a while! :( Argh not to mention a birthday that will prob be busy and unable to celebrate with anyone. Ah well

Whew 1 loooong recap

2010-07-17T17:55:00.002+08:00

Ahh the last time i blogged was 0.o

Anw lots have happened and some stuff are juz crap to share about face to face

BMT was the brill!!! Lemme see, marksman, threw grenades, achieved my pull up target of 15 (could have done more but for FI asking me to stop :( ) and met real good friends, though only am really only in contact with a few now.... LEOPARD FTW
Jiro one one JIro, we are the second last!!! :P

Haha to think i was not allowed to shoot or throw grenades cuz i excused loud noise!!! RMb how emo i was when i was asked to go one side and scolded for goin to range T.T then said i can shoot, then cannot, then can... roller coaster lah deh.... lucky in the end it was an OK!!! shiokness ah

then the letdown...

after all the assurances and belief by my friends i would be in sispec... i got in

Driver 3tpt bn

erm WTF!!?!?!??!?!?!

then i realised it would be a LARC V driver AKA Duck Tours T.Tllll

next, driving course= 11 confinements due to the sat bookouts! my goodness, barely had the energy to meet my frens ARGHHHHHHH

haha but there were many positives lah. meeting a guy who totally pwns my random rhymes was cool! 2 of us like bleddy idiots rhyming all we say in a conversation while still making sense... well some sense... FUN!!! haha

Varun Varman from afganistan,
who loves to eat rambutan,
has a crush on unknown Tan,
soon to be a rifleman,
with a sar 21
... yeah u get the picture

VS
Jun Qi Han
from pakistan LOLOLOLOLOOL

Nad meeting a great instructor, Lim TH or thiong hoe if i'm right
lol calling me uncle han cos of my random mistakes like not swtchin on master switch, removin wheeel choke, headlights etc :P
haha askin me to overtake while doin night driving was COOL!!! 2 cars in a row juz got owned lol hehe

then of course there had to be the inevitable letdown... too many times in the past few years... i OOCed... due to failing driving test 8 times... though this news was greeted with incredulous looks from my various DFT instructors. they saw me drive for 5 minutes nad literally said how the fuck u fail xia han
LOL!!! almost all said the same thing! haha Sharil gave me my fav compliment: You drive as good as or better than a trainer... haix how u fail lah you
how i fail? simple

FUCK YOU RECKLESS DRIVERS AND LEE KIAM SAI!!!!

ok rant over

ps i self owned once, nvr on headlight...W T F

seriouly, i was not meant to pass lah... how manyb times i kena suayness!!! 2 times pedestrains juz dasj across leh, i e barke 2 times, tester say good then car wanna cut in... daioz

asiya think only i pissed off liao but at least i made new friends who are cool! honestly, us jc ppl are real boring compared to these so called lesser educated ppl

So... OOC eh waht now?

Hmm how about back to hq attached for YOG?

But after a 4 day day off which meant... WORLD CUP!!!! hehehe

watchin ALL knockout round matches was crazy shit man, soccer fever TTM!!! anw....back to HQ

the first day was argh!!! ok guys sit in the conference room till 5.. O.....Kaaayyyyy
WTF man, totally makes u feel useless lah

then after a few days... hey who got GP A? i stupidly admitted it and BOOM! RSM PA till YOG over =.=lll

and what did i do? hmm spellchecker and grammar inspector as well as occasional email composer... how about F7?!?!?! nvm, at least i do something! so not much complaints to be honest

and now, i regret... Han plan the YOG safety balh balh blah, go for YOG meetin on blah blah blah bsuy busy busy

BUT i'm doin something important for a once in a lifetime event!!! so hey! kinda cool once you get past the lots of work bit.

of course, the caveat is that i am confrim revocated... so... hope my excuse loud noise ensures i go in a salck voc... especially as it was the probable reason for me not goin sispec!!! pray time!!!

hmm yeah and that brings me back to present,
lots more i can say,
but i'm to layzay,
so hey,
i'll do it some other day!!! :P

and its been a surreal week i'll say, lots of unexpected reunions possibly comin up with various great friends from diffenrent points in my life!!! Lifes lookin up!!! :)

NS fear

2010-02-04T02:19:00.001+08:00

This fear
So queer
Now get me outta here
So near
My dear
Please whisper in my ear
Nothing to fear
As long as i am here
So please don't shed nary a tear

pressure!

2009-10-07T10:37:00.002+08:00

Ahhh crap, the master procrastinator is at it again. playin com while i should be studyin AKA now!

Prelims are total GG

no A.... no B..., and still got S

time to study Jack Ass!!!

grah, keep forgettin formula and yada yada yada, irritatin, cos its not lyk i dunno how but i can't rmb the bleddy formula, what the heck is a data booklet and formula list for w/o these things

diaoz

and united also drew which doesn't help my mood.

Shit xia

A's in 30 + days

Screwed!

i need to recover my competitive spirit1

no more mr nice guy

rmb when i used to nvr allow myself to lose to anyone.... now.........

since i entered vj, i think i have been overawed. keep givijn myself excuses to lose to others!

last chance le!

Skillzter 07 time to return and skillzter 09? u can go to hell

As last said in 07, Lee jia de ren, wo shi dou hui da bai ni!!!

YAAAHHHHHH

The ramblings of a confused mind

2009-08-03T12:27:00.002+08:00

so much has occured so much to think

finally i got an A for something other than CL, but considerin my investment in math it was the min i shld expect...

E for phys, dam i sark, shld have studied lah, ppl gettin a or b and i get e...

S for chem, and i actually studied! damnanations

E for econs, ok improvement... but E for E-diot

waitin for GP, prob will suck...

still hope springs eternal

and really need to study le xiol, ego can only take so much damage

then observin ppl with their issues juz makes me go =.=, not specifyin wad but seriously, decide on what you gonna do and stick to it, jeez whats with the shld i shld i not

thinkin bout my future career after that fair, rally dun mind mindef as long as i can escape all that workplace political nonsense, but then rules?? dude, my life my rulz so make ur rules i'll juz break em unless i see a real good reason for em.

somehow i juz keep thinkin bout how i wasted my last 2 years. then i kinda realise is all in life all academics??? that was my main failure so far, ok somehow i seem to have become bloody introverted. like wht the bleh

the best was when i told my old fren from vs i lately emo and he was like
Fuck you , Bullshit! you when got emo xia, tapai masi full of shit de mah, if u emo i how xia

juz makes you think huh... can one change so much in juz 2 years?

Nah, juz gotta stop being this ^(&^ up fool and get back to being me.

Skillzter 07 last seen yr 2007 or early 2008

Skillzter 09 time to emerge!!!!

Oh yeah Soccer!!!

2009-05-21T16:24:00.003+08:00

Fine this shld be on wed... wadeva my life my rulz ;)

finally, soccer for pe!!!
important stuff: i goal scored
pass from andy, one touch to control and lift it into the air, another to volley it home! ain't the best goal i scored, but it'll do especially when its a one goal win 4-3 and we were losin 2-0 when i scored! guess it helps when i always do that at home with a plastic ball ;) broken some stuff though and dented a cupboard ;P
PS: the best goal??, either one curled directly in from a corner!!! or one curled into top corner from freekick juz outside the box!

BUT... my defending was a total disgrace... yesh kena owned by rifdi, after 2+ years playin with or against him, still ain't able to turn like him, in fact almost twisted ankle tryin to block him.

failure to utilise long balls another failure. let my team down by not controllin a single long pass out to me, worse handled the ball in an epic fail attempt to chest!!! can't imagine juz 3 years ago, i was one of a few who can effectively use chest traps( haix )

passin also let me down, curled a corner so much it went out before it reached the near post!!!! jeez at least let it past the far post next time!!! no assists too, though one tackle by me and a pass to andy, then a flick on by him resulted in a goal. HA! i'll take that as an indirect assist!!!

then agian after collin left and ppl kept joinin my team it ended up 8 vs 5

dun really know everyone but really envy 08s51, so many soccer lovers!!! heard they played at the cage too!! argh, hope can join em for more games.

anw the teams

mine: moi,andy, hans( also s51), Wy,3 or more?ppl frm s51, ben
opponents: esmond, noel, rifdi and oanother from s51 ( does cols count?? he missed 3 converted 1 btw though i was at fault for 2 grrrr)

now really anxious for the CL finals, may the right team win!!!!

Have you ever by hmm s club 7?? ( remixed by ze skillzter)

somedays i may not score a goal,but i confirm can create
nowadays i juz wanna go and play
even though the skills have gone
and my playin skillz are goin down
all i can say is that the ball is too damn round

Tell me, have you ever made a cross that helped somebody
score the winning goal and fell damn happy
can't you see, thats how much i juz love playin this game baby
have you ever seen that goalmouth gaping
lookin at a chance you should be takin
I should know, cos i missed and screwed the shot like a bodo

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

can't help but feel so darn anxious, Cl finals juz next week
gotta be in rome where i belong
now i fanally realised it was for united that i've found
I'd give a lot to ensure that they win the cup

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
tell me have you ever enjoyed a game so madly
wish that it was juz never ending
can't you see thats how this team is my life baby
have you ever hoped they can keep scorin
and never ever ever be conceding
i should know cos i was damn sad when everton beat us

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round
I really wanna find someone who knows juz how it feels
to
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

ack lazy to do the rest, in fact shld have been up last month!!!
for todays post refer to other blog lah

relief and goals nope not soccer!!

2009-05-14T15:54:00.002+08:00

Whoooo

finally passed my NAPFA...
kinda weird that i am sayin this considerin all the gold i could attain without much effort last time but... guess i am slackin too much
different rolesin sports also have a helluva effect. from a CDM to a star defender in soccer to.... goalkeeper in floorball???
should have known when i felt tired after a pathetic 10 minutes of floorball durin VOG, though no one gets past me when i go all out!, it helps that i dun have to worry too much about ppl i dun know so i can juz chiong.
reason for my timidness in tacklin ppl i know? i broke or fractured my seniors arm in a game of soccer when i accidentally tripped him, from then on, i nvr dared to play full force with ppl i know, juz sux to hurt em. felt guilty everytime i saw him lol.

anw back to napfa.
mornin i did 11 pull-ups, 43 non cheatin sit ups, stretched 39, ran 10.5 ( yes its lousy) but only jumped 220! (juz nice for a pathetic silver haix) after tryin jumps so much last week i was too tired for 2.4, i decided to let it be, but in the end.... 13.02 for 2.4( PATHETIC!!!) felt so pissed that i improved by 1 sec from last week?!?! especially when a sub 12 is no problem for me even in afternoon sun???!!

BUT in the end, i asked to run in the afternoon, which kinda stunned the teacher who was like: What?? you sure you can recover in time?!!?? but i was given the green light nonethelesss...

So... i ate popcorn chicken to emulate usain bolt the nugget eater ( fine also had rice and fish ;)) but the real secret weapon? not red bull, not coffee BUT

100 plus and milo!

imbar sugar rush though i drank it like immediately after PE

anywayszzz, ran in the afternoon and to not bore whoever actually reads this crap
i got 11.35 HAHA, silver!!! and can play SOCCER next week!!!!
beat that!! 2 2.4 in a day, and i shaved off 1.27 off my time!!! muah haha, skillzter i am! :)

as for my class well, maybe i should spend more time with em, i mean not their fault they are not soccer mad?!? is kinda fun being with em, but well too long away from em an i kinda lost touch damn!!! in fact i kinda should bet myself up over some nonsense posts i have been postin bout my class being ... ah ya get the idea

ergo stuff to do this year:
stop havin unrealistic expactations of ppl
improve my dribblin instead of juz conc on dead ball skills
improve results!! this shld be first ;) DESS, this is not me its who shall not be named results the noobster not the skillzter!
be an optimist!!!
be happy!!!
and may United achieve what they deserve!!!
1 more point you can do it!!!
and Rome is juz a cross my fingers time, doubt i can sleep that night lol

oh ya all the best for VJ FB and hockey as well as NJ and RJ soccer boyz, though dunno if they are still in!!! wanna see my old frenz again

My Weekend

2009-02-23T15:26:00.004+08:00

Ok read the previous post if you wanna emo,

it should have been in my other blog, u know, the DARK one for Dark thoughts ;)
Ah heck

enyways, my weekend is mixed at best.

My dad had EOD ( no i am not explainin what that means) but it basically meant i got to go to a hotel (Fairmont) and stay for 2D1N. Cool Righ?

But it was not totally enjoyable, cos i am ELIMINATED from SYF :(
lets juz say i blew it(harmoc) (literally) and no sound came out in the first try!!!! So i literally blew it (mataphorically ;) )
kinda kills confidence considerin i had practed till i was relatively confident that i wopuld only have at most 3 or 4 screw ups and unoticable ones too. instead i kinda paniced after the first mistake, like my juniors at FD Comp ( ps they got last >.< ouch). leading to (like them) a continuos string of errors that juz kills your soul.

Anyway, now that that is out, time to get over it!!!!
Be a man, or a skillzter, no more emo kia!!!!

fast forward, dinner was brill!!!!
200 bucks for a set meal!!! during a financial crisis too!!!
salmon sushi, sashimi, wagyu beef, fish roe, mmm mmm.
maybe i kinda took advantage of the fact it is FREE!!!!
but a good way to get over disappointment righ? ;)

Ack, phys remedial startin gtg le

aiya heck, 1 poem first, i'm gettin addicted to this ;)

What can i say
I sibei suay
Syf no more already (pronounce al-ray-day)

go eat sushi
so will be happy
maybe i goin crazy

Spa this week
try not to freak (out)
i am feelin a bit sick

School quite xian leh
been here all day
what the heck gtg already

good stuff so far

2009-02-21T15:53:00.003+08:00

What a year.

United are still on a great clean sheet run, long may it continue.

I already played soccer twice this year and hat a hat trick of assists in my second match though i wasted a good chance to score myself. as usual all assists are from dead balls or when i play with total instinct, but my ball control is now a joke, wasted too many good passes. ;P

Still keepin in contact with friends no longer in this school

still makin poems

still alive ;)

My first post usin my phone!

2008-11-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

wah cool xia, i can post usin my phone! Oh yeah! By the way it is the G705, but kinda slow liddat,so will stop now lol.

rip off

2008-11-05T13:29:00.001+08:00

Sixteen, sixteen minutes left
better get it done!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen more minutes
get ready, game on!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen minutes left
running out of time!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen more minutes
it’s on the line!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen minutes left
better get it done!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen more minutes
’til we’re number one!

(Let’s go team!)

Gotta get it together!
Yeah, pull up and shoot! Score!
Are you ready? Are you with me?

TEAM! TEAM! TEAM! YEAH!
Shake’em with the crossover? (Wild Cats)
Tell me what are we here for? (To Win)
’cause we Know we’re the best team!
(Come on boys! Come on boys! Come on!)

The way we play tonight
is what we leave behind! (That’s right)
It all comes down to right now
it’s up to us! (Let’s go!)

So what we’re gonna be? (Gonna be)
T-E-A-M Team!
Gotta Work it out
Turning on (Come on)

This is the last time
to get it right!
This is the last chance
to make it or not!

We gotta show
what we’re all about (TEAM)

Work together!

This is the last chance
to make your mark
History will know
who we are
This is the last game
So make it count

It’s Now or Never!

W-I-L-D (Out of Bounds)
Wildcats!
You know! Come on!
W-I-L-D
Wildcats!
Come on! Come on!
West High Knights, hey
Yeah, we’re doing it right? (OH YEAH)
W-I-L-D
Wildcats!
It’s now the time!

Gotta get inside, downlow
In the pain now shoot! Score! (Defence!)
We gotta work it together
Gimme the ball! (3x)

Fastbreak! (Keep the ball in control)
Let it fly from downtown (Three! Four!)
Show’em we can do it better! (No way! Go go go!)
(Come on boys! Wildcats!)

The way we play tonight
is what we leave behind! (That’s right)
It all comes down to right now
it’s up to us! (Let’s go!)

So what we’re gonna be? (Gonna be)
T-E-A-M Team!
Gotta Work it out
Turning on (Come on)

This is the last time
to get it right!
This is the last chance
to make it or not!

We gotta show
what we’re all about (TEAM)

Work together!

This is the last chance
to make your mark
History will know
who we are
This is the last game
So make it count

It’s Now or Never!

Right now I can hardly breath!
Oooh, you can do it just know that I believe!
And that’s all I really need!
Then come on!
Make me strong!
It’s time to turn it up, game on!

Wildcats! Go tear it up!
Go Wildcats! We’re number one!
Hey Wildcats, We’re the champions!
Go! (5x) Oh Team! Oh!
West High Knights, hey
Yeah, we’re putting up a fight! (wildcats)
We’ll never quit it, gonna win it!
Let me hear you say
HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY

This is the last time
to get it right!
This is the last chance
to make it or not!

We gotta show
what we’re all about (TEAM)

Work together!

This is the last chance
to make your mark
History will know
who we are
This is the last game
So make it count

It’s Now or Never!

will rip off next time...

Ahh A's comin up!!!!

2008-10-29T08:07:00.002+08:00

Wah xia lah, juz liddat 2molo will be chinese, and friday will be OP.

geezes, seems like one year has just flown by like that.

this is also o level period and the d day for J2 frenz. all the best manz!!! set me a challenge worth overcoming!!!! and alos at the same time give me the motivation that has been missing this year!

oh well, this post is mainly to support J2 frenz, so ya, i'll stop here!

ALL THE BEST LCY, BEN, SWEE!!!

Thoughts

2008-10-03T14:00:00.002+08:00

Argh stuck in v25 doin pw... fackin waste of time... oh ya happy b'day to god! no i m not a christian dun tink i will ever be.... anyway god is my friend and i'm not delusional, it is the short form of his name.

feel that there ain't no class spirit. but first i am a introvert so ya can't comment too uch, but i also believe in the blue collar and white collar rule when makin frenz so ya

the rule is that blue collar people are those you can afford to trust nad can be good friends with. most of my frens belong in this category. white collar people are those who only consider themselves first be fore you and you should only be with them in good times but leave immediately in bad times or when you compete with them as they will do wahtever it takes to achieve wad they want for themselves.the key is to be in thier inner circle orelse beware of such people. some of my frens are these type.

now the prob is that in good schools the majority is white collar ppl who only care about themselves, hence ya gotta choose ya fens well or else...

check this out!

2008-09-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

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Wah Say

2008-09-16T11:57:00.002+08:00

Wah dunno wad to start with,
phys spa today, hope i did ok ba...
then united loss to liverPOO damn1 first time in such a long time since we lost to them.... ahhh dunno wad to say le
been playing com non stop and not studyin when ppl who o not need to study as much as me are mugging lyk shit
crap, gotta get a realty check and its not the one which can be cashed in for money ;)
ciao, if youre reading this hope this reminds you there is more to life than the endless rat race and muggin, after all
1 life live it!

CPR on this Blog ;)

2008-09-12T09:41:00.002+08:00

Heya all the ppl who actually read this thingy... dunno y... betcha think this is dead le. no! its not! juz takin a break lol

anw posting now during my 4 period beak lol. should be studyin, considering my fingers juz nice can count ALL the chapts i study in total! GG le!

heck i'm the skillzter so time to skill le! gotta start STUDYIN NOT muggin. cos as i always say, studyin is a less extreme form of muggin and muggin is actually means robbery so i dun mug, except when i was with a small gang in pri school ;).

anw this has been a relatively gd wk i guess. i found my file w00t! nad federer won. now all i need is a win this weekend against liver to make it a brill week! heck, go play viwawa le, so ciao!

Federer win
he's still the king
Skillzter starts studyin
he sure can do his thing.

lol lack of practice le, noobism poem.

Relax le

2008-08-28T18:43:00.002+08:00

Ahh PREMIERSHIP is up and runnin!!!

posts shall henceforth only be up to the skillzter who owns this blog as to whether this blog lives or dies.

Expect updates on scores though

Givin Up

2008-08-23T19:37:00.004+08:00

nowadays, getting more and more solo... dun tok much in school or at home, izzit stress? or maybe the 4 month break from soccer... wish i was born 1 year early... most of my trustworthy frenz will be goin ns nxt year, these guys gimme the lameness i needed to pull through school. now they r too busy for our random outings. damn

soloism
pessimism
wadeverism

ppl also gettin more sensitive nowadays, guess my rule that only care abt those who matter to you is a good rule, cos i can block out the shit i get in chem class especially frm%^$*^%*.

however may be too good at it, getting back to my xain times when i am always alone even when i'm with others

from Dark Blue song
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

Yep lately.

R&R

2008-08-11T17:33:00.004+08:00

Reviews and Reflections time! ha! fooled ya, bet ya tot tat R&R meant rest and relaxation! ;)

Anyways inspired to do a review of past stuff after watchin Mummy:tomb of the dragon emperor wif gan zik, leong ginseng, ST,and her friend Lays after connect sg. Hmm think that ya should not watch this movie unless with lame friends, felt that only good for watching with ppl who will make lame comments all thru the movie like LLL( Lim Lame Loser) ain't gonna reveal hu cept that he is my senior, and the ultimate lamer! ;)

Movie Awards
Lamest movie: 10k BC, watched this with LLL. damn funny, damn lame
Most Serious movie: Dark knight, nice, but not enough humor...
LOLest fight scene : Kung Fu panda, watched with LohLQ, laughed for at least 5 solid minutes!
Best movie: too many... hmm LOTR and troy?
Suckiest movie: AVP2 dun ever waste your time on this. Yucks >.<

Favourite Quotes ( includes my past favs )

kam pooi: means??? i think it means lame, juz fun to say bah ;) try it! still in use but rarely
Na Bey: was fun to say till i found out about the true meaning ;-P, still, was a war cry of sorts in sec 3 for me and YJ( better dun reveal hu) retired
Go Home go home!!! : best used after maths or when a boring teacher comes in or leaves. sec 3 and 4 fav quote! again together wif YJ
GG le/lo: best used during mock fire drills( shout it at the top of your voice and include go home!!! for best effect) used most during sec 3 rc camp, by now u should know with who!
Your mum!!!: used as an exclamation at the end of all words. DO NOT use when malays around! they will whack you! stopped in sec 2
Ho Say Liao: fun to shout oso of course, when ya score a goal, or manage to pon trainin ;)
Sang : basically another word for lame, learned from LLL
Sorang : basically malu or weird, from LCY
TOOT: shout it out in weird places or when people are looking elsewhere... then hide and look for the reaction! mainly used when i waz in sec 3 and 4 with YJ and we were ponnin or juz slackin away at trainin. became more sporadic as voices broke and sound effect was not so good ;)

Hmm dunno wad else le...

oh ya Man Utd won the Charity Shield! oh yeah! here's to more successes! and i juz got the season review DVD! whoo hoo!

Oh ya a poem to satisfy those who wan one:

Connect SG
Schedule GG
DJ a bit crazy
make us Sala lyk free

Got NDP
I damn happy
No school for me!
Got 4 days free!

My Bday on 12
I wan better health
or at least more wealth
and ranking points at least 5 times 12!

Rhyming not that easy
you try and see
if you can outdo me
I treat you green tea! ;)

VS Speech day!

2008-08-05T18:51:00.002+08:00

VS Speech Day! 2-8-08

I gotta prize but thats not ta main point of tis post lah. its is my continuous bad luck with such stuff!

Primary school: Given someone elses prize
Sec School: same as above loool
Speech Day: Name spell wrong on list: Han Junq... no I... wts

Anyway was great to see old frenz again i guess, and do not ever forget VS cheers! own VJ anytime, cos our spelling cheer is actually a taupok cheer, all ppl will try and crush each other while screaming name of school! OWN!

Then VS unite has an imbar verse nad my fav part of it that is not present in VJ de:

We fight in the sun!

We fight in the rain!

We fight to school a name!

We walk from a game with pride and fame!

We feel no fear we feel no pain!

All X 2

Damn it was graet doing these cheers again! cheered so hard that i went home with sore throat and my upper leg was totally red! lol

Wong Liang Seng also performed! yep him and his imbar opera voice! and the wushu was also cool to watch! and dun forget the indians nad their spas dance that makes everyone laugh! OWN

VS forever!

Weird Life

2008-07-28T15:29:00.005+08:00

Lah lah blah

Dun wnna post about anything muct today lah. so will post about friday!

On friday was super song! got PE(my favourite time of school DUH) for 4 periods! i ran an extra round with Noel juz to zhao doing sit ups and push ups lol. then i join them juz nice for floorball vs S56 erm shld be 56 bah. owned the shit outta them. anw this is not the main point!

It was.... VS vs Non-VS! yep we played floorball this way! quite unfair ba in terms of numbers, but it was the best motivation ever! i felt totally energised cos i dun wanna lose VS's face again like when i played soccer with st pats ppl.

Teams:

VS( my team= proded team) 5 ppl nia
Me! Cheng Kai, Edward, Collin, Darrell

Non VS ( to give credit... not bad lah) 8 ppl!

Estee(hockey), Debbie(floorball), Vincent(track), Martin( Chairs and Tables Council), Shi Hang, Stephanie, Andy, Noel (damn fit)

we played on the hockey trainin pitch first and was almost able to win. felt kinda weird playin as goalie. i always liked plaing by instinct, chionging and all that... but i played my role well i guess. getting quite a few blocks and clearing. however i hit Estee accidentallyu while clearing once and the area turned red! :-P hope it doesn't hurt much or gg le. the suay usay or should i say a blessing in disguise, got lightnin alert. so we went to hall to continue.

Wah full hall was freaking tiring lah. Lucky the thought of VS motivates me so much. stuck as goalie again, but with 5 ppl, all cept darrell played goalie lol. at least it lets me do wad i like most. running around on blocking sprees! I know Estee say i played quite well! ;-). i kept blocking all her crosses! but i made the mistake that led to debbie's goal. Damn still make 1 big mistake a match! i know collin made a super save when he flew across the goal to block 1 shot. then our first goal went in when i chionged forward when i was bored of goalkeeping, mishit the ball, ran back, turned around and saw the ball in the net! like wow! the rest cannot really remember bah, i think collin and CK scored the other goals. i cannot remember hu else scored for non-vs.

BUT the main thing is we drew! 3-3 with 3 men less! w00t ah! nicely done i say! then we took group pics.. but i dun have cos was usin debbie's cam. lolz have to wait for her to post on her blog le!

Then afternoon went to watch dark knight! i went with on hindsight my biggest group ever. lol 4 ppl nia. kinda sad i guess. but i only go to movies with close friends. that is my rule loool. went with the monk, Fei Bao, Xiao Luo. Hehe only if u know me then u will noe them! we were damn bo liao. we got off at tam stadium, then monk insisted on not jaywalkin. so we had to waste time to walk to the lights. then i bring them wrong way to subway! then subway full so we want to go LJS. then we realise it was gone! so we went to BK in the end. then, funnily, the first to buy finish eatin last and the last to buy finish first! same for 2nd and 3rd lol. lame xia! then we go buy tix, went in the hall and saw a VJC flood! the centre was like total VJ, and to confirm my theory that most vj are rich ppl, almost all had the 8 bucks set meal( popcorn and drink) wtf waste of money! we only bought chips nad popcorn from NTUC, had to smuggle in lol.

The movie was nice i guess, too dark for my liking. not much humor... but still a good movie...
then damn lame, when we left, we realise that when we walked down the stairs we end up back inside GV, so ppl can actually sneak up w/o payin! nicely done lah GV tam.

Ah heck hand tired liao, post more next time.

PS ignore my previous post was damn pissed that day... and i juz cannot bother to delete it too. after all as i learnt from the nanjing war memorial: can forgive but cannot forget

Wah Xian

2008-07-19T23:06:00.002+08:00

Life juz sucks
Seriously
Are results that important? so i got 2 S'es and my chinese is now a B. so what
does that give ya a right to look at me as a failure?

Screw it. gonna give up on studies. what good izzit for anyway? endless muggin? a way to totally burn the best part of your life? wadever.

mebbe runnin away from home may not solve anything. i will go back anyway. but at least i can be alone. nothing to bother me.

F*&% MAN!!!

E-learning and more

2008-07-12T18:13:00.002+08:00

Thursday was E-learning
Was super boring
tried to start learning
ended up stoning

Friday was basketball in PE
My accuracy was super freaky
normally was super lousy
suddenly was zhun like crazy

on the way back din tap my EZ (link)
conductor coming up was super scary
i thought that i sure will mati
but then i was super lucky
he walked to me super slowly
i got off the bus before he reach me
heart pounding like some chimpanzee ( can't think of better rhyming words le lol ;-) )

Chinese got A
super Gay
Physics got D
damn happy
Chem get E
i cry like free ( OK i din cry relax )
Maths get S
Please kick my ass! (ok better stop now... need inspiration!...and a bit too corny liao)

Yeah kinda summarised my week i guess! hmm may want to start all my posts with a poem if possible! Pity i lost contact wif my best fren in Primary school... we were the best rhymers! though our poems are the kind that will get us in trouble if an adult ever sees it. ;-)
But as i only blog when my parents are not around... may not be that often ba. in fact i am in fairmont hotel bloggong in the business centre! lol coz my dad is on weekend duty so can stay here for free! cool huh!

anyway cca is quite problem xia. Infocomm too geeky le... collage mag too boring le... Harmoc seems fun and my friens in other schools are in there as well as LCY... though as a j2 he left le... Or should i follow Estee and join PAWS? hmm i like pets but am too much of a solo-ist ( tend to be by myself is this considered emo?) so may not be a good person to look after animals... my sensitive skin doesn't help.

so what cca should i join? gimme your opinion... huever reads this blog lah! duh!

talking about pets i feel so sad... my favourite pet koi(yuan bao) juz died... :-(. he was the first fish i bought using my own money and he was orange! ARGH since i join JC and cannot go home early i never take care of my kois well. used to have 18, now with diseases and all that nonsense, now only 14? 13? dun dare to count... they seem to reflect my life now... when in sec they were like super healthy, now in jc i unhappy thay not healthy... gotta perk myself up! worse still i bought medication but all the sick fish i treated became worse! how come liddat? i search the net, read books also no use... c'mon get well guys.

gotta new motto on my phone too:
skillzter07 back in action
cos i got my motivation

rhymes too right?!? but dunno how to continue lolz and i dunno why i start to call my self skillzter07 lol

gotta have a good reaction?
?????????????????????????

heck time to stop le... starting to get too sombre anyway i keep sad thoughts to myself anyway, gotta be a happy influence for friends after all, my time as a pai kia once thought me an important thing:
be loyal to your friends! cos they and family are all that matters... oh ya thrash your enemies to keep yourself happy too! by pranks( my favourite i do this to friends too quite often) or violence (nah not my style lah)
wah xia lah long post! not my style too! coz i m quite a slacker ;-)

PS how to get a blog counter? i am a blog noob ( using a predef template if u haven noticed ;-) )

Bo liao-ness

2008-07-09T08:32:00.002+08:00

Blogging to keeep my blog alive,
i guess i really gotta get a life.
my life right now is noobified
my results leave me petrified.
federer lost wimbledon
i just entered serious noobdom
Man utd are the double Champs!
its as though i got a magic lamp!

oops noob rhyme! just doin something in GP class cos i too bo liao le. dun read too much into it, just tryin to rhyme.

anyway i am invited to my school speech day! WOOT ah! but i also no face to go back... my chinese is a, 74.5!!! top in class for first time! but maths 33, chem 51 and physics 57, how to face my teachers?!?

Heck lah, lets tok more about the hols! Shanghai trip! Gotta Thank Chang yang AKA LCY for asking me to go on this trip! was sooo fun and i also ogt to just relax and have fun again! Of course the cheap DVDS help! but POT and dragonball is not complete... still was damn fun! Pity we only had our long chats on the day of departutre, brought back great memories of our time in VS. still miss those times.... guess i'm juz a sentimental guy.

though i am more mental than sentimental now... ;-)

Heck i got noot much to tok about lah, and also dun wanna tio caught... so zhao loh! :-)

whoops

2008-06-30T18:56:00.003+08:00

whoops i dun really post pics so as you can see the pics position a bit screw up lah, hope whoever reads this blog in the first place doesn't mind! Bleah. ;-P
Here are more!!!

Heh heh i'm back!!!

2008-06-28T19:38:00.003+08:00

Whoo Hoo!!! this was a brill hols and a bad to da max first week of scholl, but vj is not vs so DUH! Anyway if u nvr notice i nvr blog for whole hols cause i was busy playin games and watching tv NOT muggin! take that muggers!

First things first, Man Utd have won!!! woot ah! but i wasted 3 plus hours and failed to get the afternoon edition of newpaper! damn! and i coulda bought it when i went to cheer Estee in the hockey finals which they won! Ha! My winner aura is back!

Then i went on exchange programme to shanghai! uber song xia! the guys shopped lyk gurls( buy like xiao ) and they also did the same. lols. got prison break 3 whole season! song boh! for S$4 nia. then i got slam dunk anime too! w00t ah. made loadsa friends and had loadsa fun! but a highlight must be when i played hearts and had only 1 point after 8 rounds! toldcha bout the winner aura! ;-) but then when i went to bathe the guy who took over me managed to lose! lyk WTF to the max lah. how to lose liddat! will elaborate more next time too much to post le.

here are some pics( too lazy to write le ;) ):

then had RC camp! campfire sux so bad that when i went near the fire i felt cold, literally and sarcastically. heck, my best pal was back( Yan Jun, since you like attenton shall post your name :-P ). we threw water bombs at them, then used to hosereel!!! super a lot of water sprayed on them lah! but then we got stuck upstairs cos some idiot locked all the stairs and off the lift. =-=lll then the security guard juz tao us when we asked for help! so i had to climb down from the stairs next to the hall! lucky i was a rockclimber lah. still a skillzter u noe! yan jun ham ji, so i had to bring a table and climb back up to show him the way down! lol so funny lor

well tok more next time lar, if i even bother

oh ya spain won!!! woot! And i topped my class in chinese!!!

Go Manchester United !!!

2008-05-21T08:40:00.003+08:00

Todays the Champs league final!!!

Hence:
Go united!
Own them united!
go united!
own em all the way!!!

baically win tonight!!!!

yah!!!

Great week!!!

2008-05-16T18:54:00.011+08:00

Wah Hey!!! Long time since i posted le!!! anyways i had a great week!
( if i ignore acadamic aspects lah ;) )

WED 14-5

On wed, joined the class for SLV at some kindergarden. though i din haf the chance to present soccer. the sight of all those happy kids was quite uplifting. they were quite funny to say the least and their antics are cute i guess, like climbing up the tallest guy in my class nad fooling around with the sports equipment. then we went back to school where there was more fun!!!

since we could not make it in time for match support, we decided to play floorball in school instead. it was damn fun xia!!! we split into teams of 4.

Team 1: Darrell,Estee,Vincent,Colin
Team 2: Me!!!, Debbie, Cheng Kai, Edward

I was playing goalie and occasionaly all over the place as is my style ;) the girls all quite good lor, us guys all tio owned. especially Estee lah, her shots all damn fast, can only save some nia. and i also let in own goals like free lol. at least my team not too bad 1st half ended 7-7 i tink. most goals either unsavable or i bored and moved upfield and give open goal lol. i scored 1 when i poked the ball past colin!!! score 1 for noobdom!

after a short break, Estee like on fire xia! she scored a hat trick( dunno if this is the right term for floorball, heck i'm a soccer guy anw ;P) all super fast and accurate too. then when CK try to go in goal and she scored past him, he gave up and gave me some credit. i gave me loadsa confidence in my abilities too! and i saved a lot after that!!! i also scored a top corner goal when edward was helping me in goal!!! cool xia, still can replay in my mind!lolz then when we all were uber tired liao, we played all out attack and golden goal. and unbelievably i scored!!! i was very fresh cos i never move much as goalie so when i finally can move, i chiong like some xiao guy and managed to tackle colin again and he was the last man!!! so i scored the goal!!! cool xia!! after all i will be the guy who always assists and can have a game with 3 assists but no goals... butthis time is the opposite cos i dun timk i played any good passes that resul;ted in goals. of course i never play goalie b4 so quite a new and fun experience :D

then we went out ta thai pan, new experience for me. and i never order anything!!! seems spastic but that is also another side of me ;-) anyway will try next time cos the food looks chao ji nice lah! then we talked cock for quite some time. was very lame but fun. then i was freaked out by a scream when we were walkin out, but dun wanna say too much except the circumstances very sang lah.

Thurs 15-5

ponned match support to go for flu jab... anw i missed the bus lol. can call it a class ponning ;0

then afternoon went to downtown to watch iron man with xiao luo AKA li quan. so long since we last watched a movie xia. but got a very lame thing happen b4 the movie. the usher told us we cannot bring outside drinks when we tried to get in...so i told him we will throw away. but i just put it in his jacket in a plastic bag!! then when he asked to check, i tot sure die le cos when i lift up, my arm which just got a jab was trembling cos pain and v heavy. but he din even notice and let us in!!! like damn diao lah, tot he will check out bags then all the chips will tio confiscate too!
anyway the movie damn nice lah!!! must watch lah. and stay till the end too!!! got scene that will appeal to marvel fans.

After that even though just the two of us, we had loadsa fun talkin and walkin around downtown till 9 plus. and we met at 4.50+++?!!? partly was cos by some freak occurence he kena 1 leg full of ants when we walked out of downtown that time. he like took out his shoes and they were all over his socks in side and outside and were crawlin up his leg!!! damn heng i ask him to stop at bustop and check or else... basically ants in your pants lah then we walked to the interchange and realise he dun have bus to go home!!! so we cleared the remaining ants at the interchange then walked back!!! lame right??!

anw thats all for now chao le

bye!!!

Weird week

2008-05-04T19:06:00.002+08:00

hmm had a weird week...

Had jts which was kinda fun... a pae friend came. our "brother" as we called her due to her previously short hair, but we can call her the hip hopper now, cos she looked quite cool i guess.
the seniors were also quite fun, laughed a lot talkin bout girldexes and other stuff. lolz

on wed, had sport day, didn't do much as i prefer tennis, so i watched the match against ACSI, tio thrrash last match xia!!! 20 minutes gg le. but first 2 singles were v nice and good to watch.i also ponned lecture to play b ball, sucked big time was damn noob while esmond was damn pro!! he did cool moves xia!!!
then at nite went out with my old pals from j2. quite cool when we went out, 1 MJ, 1 TPJ and 2VJ lolz. ate at popeye at T3 then bought jellybeans and tried out every flavour!!! we even found coffee when it was no listed!! as i said weird >< felt like myself in their company, as in chatty, laughing and happy instead of the stoner i have been.

friday sarked big time. 2.4 timing was 12.11 i tink which was a 10 second drop frm last year!!!. i lost to a girl in my class too !!! lol hope not too many ppl see this or sure tio suan. RESPECT for her now!!!

Ack no time le, gotta go out!!! tell ya bout the rest next time!!!

p.s. loved it that Man Utd are in the CL final and we kinda THRASHED west ham!!! w00t!

Insert wad u think its about here ;)

2008-04-26T17:59:00.002+08:00

had an ok week except for NAPFA...bleaggh

for napfa, i kinda did the usual routine, aced the pull ups(11) could do more but stopped cause my clsaa ppl were like askin me to stop showin off, in the end did not end up the best, lost by 1!!! damn it!!! this was my best chance to be the best too!
past records: sec1: 35- ? in class but top few can le
sec2: 30-injured mah
sec3: 50- owned the class and i did not use up all the time too to give face again or will have owned by more than 10, helped that some were doin pull ups but bet will no diff de;) !!!
sec4: 10- jointbest in CCA, had to give my joint best fren face mah

then the rest were crap, runnin sucked again, tried 6 times still CMI E or D standard... sheet lah sure tio suan le, sit up did 39 but said 43, juz wanted the A, did 45 myself at home to boost my self confidence lolz, sit n reach dunno but not good can le enuf for C though, jump did 226, not bad but far below my best. gotta be the best at least in class for pull ups next year!!! got a girl run 2.4 in 11+++ mins!!! pro xia!!! inspire me to go for sub 10 or sub 11!!! go man!!!

then watched tennis, class ppl did well, won but the rest lost so we no hope of progressin haix, pity... should let the captain play in singles comp he own all match i saw so far. then seems they need a good doubles pairing too... y do i care so much anyway? i not in tennis... lol victorian spirit or EXTRA spirit?

PW quite guai, the guy i tot will be v useful nvr come both times but came 2 day for ourdiscussion, so we accomplish more in 2++ hours than in school.

lolz gotta tok more, coz i got skillz juz m too much of a natural soloist, ie lyk 2 b wif ppl but will juz listen and rarely tok, unless wif super close fens then i will tok the most!!! lolz typical me

argh no time for other stuff, hate long posts, especailly as can only type with 3 fingers gotta learn 2 type properly

GO MANCHESTER UNITED!!! Win chelsea 2nite and beat barca too!!!

Finally! An update after gawd noes how long!!!

2008-04-19T17:50:00.005+08:00

Yay! finally had a chance to play soccer on friday!!! the teach in charge was not here, so we onli had ta run 4 rounds b4 we could do wadeva we wanted! was kinda surprised that people tot looked damn zia were not as preo as i tot. in the end only me and 3 other guys up front while the rest were defenders!!! Lolz, looked lyk barnsley vs chelsea instead of 08S46 vs J2 ( body blocks all the way!) we won 2-1 too! goals scored my 2 Han( singaporean and PRC ) cool xia! but my goal was damn lame, i shot and my shoe flew off, decieving the goalie lol. then near the end, i wasted a breakaway by sending my return pass too hard, in the end my friend hurt his back while crossing the ball... ARGH all my fault should have tried dribbling or pass more carefully, then he would not be injured :-( sry man. now damn worried he lyk my old fren, fell, fractured his tailbone and now cannot play his usual position(goalie) to avoid aggravatin the injury. heal well both of ya!

My skills dropped lyk xiao too, my tackle cum pass was still ok, but i ran out of stamina after 15 mins and felt lyk pukin near the end and was kinda dizzy. urgh, guess i gotta work out liao, xianz, rather work out by playin soccer wif my frenz more than solo exercise.

Oh ya i juz realised i was not dribblin much too and juz waitin in the centre for crosses. yucks not me at all lah, but i dun mind scorin more though. cool that i broke my duck in my first game of the year though coz it usually takes me much longer!

ciao will not tok about other stuff cuz other than this cuz i had a majority bad week. hope can play soccer after NAPFA! ;-)

I'm Back!!! and with messier posts than ever!!! ;-)

2008-04-06T02:08:00.005+08:00

Yayz!!! finally i can use the com again!!! not gonna say much abt y cept that it was coz i was usin the com late at nite... and im doin it again! lolz guess i'll nvr learn.

Manchester United are top of the Prem and have a nice 2 goal lead in the champo league, so juz hopin that we win the lot :-)

Anywayz i feel that i seem to be thinking about soccer a bit too much now, lyk its ze only impt thing to me!?! is that a bad thing??? i hope not.

Pe kinda xian right now. i like tennis and used to play a bit, but it seems that i have been noobified since the O's. I can't even serve properly now. However My backhand is still sucky coz its more like a rocket( goes up and outta the courts :-p ) Heck gotta improve.

As for CCA wise, this was my worse week ever, i have not completed a single course outta the 6 or so i tried!!! deproved like gay from last week whereby it was 4 outta 7 i tink. ack feel lyk crap now.

Class also a bit wierd, Stinkin seniors wan us to gif em 15 bucks so they can eat at fish n co... i nvr even eat there b4 lor. WTH. i rather treat my class ppl than ppl i dun noe, at leats it will be money much better spent. also seems that there is some lame obsession among all my friends to work out ( daily pull-ups n weights) and look muscular to impress the girls... like diaoism. later end up lookin top heavy i.e freak show. oh well if it works, hats off but i think muscles are not that important...yet.

then got a new guy joined the class, sad xia tio retain, hmm wads his name again?... jian rui izzit? heck i am always bad with names. ack

on fri got VS sports day at VJ. a bit crappy, VS losin its spirit yearly haix. saw my juniors at the first aid base. checked the FA kit and realise they dun even noe waht to bring. lacked loadsa stuff... haix VSRCCU without our batch and the batch that is 2 years older than us is goin downhill... nverethought i will feel for em, but felt sad that this is how they are goin, seems that thay aint got no discipline and they are Uber unfit, like i see no fit ppl only fat people liao. Haix wad to do? i dun even rmb most of their names so can't do much to them.

Lastly a self written Poem (tried to rhyme it but its kinda lousy, bear with me):

VSRCCU
what the heck's happened to you?
The good people have gone down the loo.
the people left make me go boo
You seem to have caught the flu
the people in charge i wanna sue
for all the crap they've done to you

uber messsy post( around 1 week)

2008-03-08T01:39:00.003+08:00

Yay watched 10 000 Bc todaay wif my frenz! a bit the lame but nice xia. then near the end got some loser solo clap! make all of us laugh lor. :-D

then at school ran my 2.4 had standin broad jump 2 day passed both!!! but alomost finish last for 2.4 coz only 3 ppl run. vincent damn sad xia injure imself, in the end had to use non existent evac techniques to help im back, felt a bit dim tay. then also feel bit the noob lah, cos if not for the fact estee slow down, dunno whether or not to gimme face, i last liao, in the end chiong and end up 1 s in front of her!!! lolz

anywayz joined rock climbin, tirin xia, but at least can claim to be a better climber than most, coz i still have my 100% record of always reachin the top! ;) w00t ah! still gotta find second cca though hmm dunno wad else xia

school was xian, hate maths liao, dun understand anything. haix ggfied le. the rest also so so... dun wanna tok 2 much bout it. :(

lastly hols start le!

Enjoy everyone! dun mug too hard!!! ;-)

2008-03-02T01:09:00.003+08:00

You are The Fool

The Fool is the card of infinite possibilities. The bag on the staff indicates that he has all he need to do or be anything he wants, he has only to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the card carries a little bark of warning as well. Stop daydreaming and fantasising and watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking the fool.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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hmm also true, coz i find i am able to accomplish what i really want if i stop and think, but i prefer to dream about what may happen instead of makin it happen. this definitely gives me more confidence in meself.

2008-03-02T01:03:00.002+08:00

You are The Emperor

Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person.

The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents
fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence
too.

The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthuiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- hmm interesting, found about about tis test frm a frens blog

seems i have Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person! :-)

but as i expected i also have aggression and violence. lol conflicting personality! typical me... after all i do tend to feel restless, bored and discontent sometimes

Juz for fun

2008-03-01T01:01:00.005+08:00

Hey Hey Hey
My first post xia!!! coz itz also my first blog!

Anyway today quite happy and also v sad.

Firstly, i finally had a chance to play some games in PE!!! woot ah! so long since i had such fun! quite a surprise to see that even though it was guys vs girls, the guys still quite rough! Hmmm, will have to get used to it! still though i had to hold back, partly due to my $&%* pulled muscle, it was great! 08S46 Rawks

Then on to the SAD news, i found out another of my frens kena kicked out cos he DSA in then the cca teacher dun like him and kick him out!!! i mean like WTH! soo unfair xial. appeal also cannot come back... haix guess it shows that this is a V. TOUGH school lor. :-(

it is made worse coz ppl from first intake do sooooo well then the Principal dun let em come back when they kena posted to better or roughly equal schools. Still tryin to get over the sense of loss... oh well thats tat fer 2day