One Year Older, more conundrums

Yea! I'm 20 now! Good? Bad? Ah who knows?

The older you are the more social issues you seem to have to handle, gifts, relationships, responsibilities, the list just goes on!

My recent post:

I guess gift buying is too complicated a concept for me. Too cheap and you are a cheapo, to not buy anything is weird, buy something good and there us pressure to buy one in return next time... Ahhh a simple meal and just a chillaxing time is still the way to go for me!

I mean, all this fuss over people getting to 21, and the need to buy gifts, and extravagant ones at that, from what i hear ipads, fossil watches, GEEZ!!! Where does all this money come from? Call me a miser, but if gifts are the only way to convey your friendship, then this is one heckuva material world we are in! Hmm maybe coming from a boys school whereby practicality rules, gifts just seem like an alien concept to us. Giving a VJ bear when i went to a good friends concert has probably been the only real significant gift I've given, with the pack of miniature cards given to a good friend in VS a real awkward thing (guys giving guys gifts... hmm... meh!). (English really sucks now)

Heck, whatever happened to just a simple meal, or outing to celebrate a birthday! Then the birthday boy/girl can really just relax and enjoy the occasion instead of thinking how to entertain all the guests, how to repay the gift next time, or think how cheapo the gift is! After all, memories are much more beautiful and lasting than any gift right? Unless you are an amnesiac, or the gift is a diamond,which is after all, forever ;) Speaking of which, dinner with Ken, ZY and CC followed by pool was a real nice way to celebrate a double birthday! Unbeaten for 5 games in a row for pool, with 2 gifted to me via suicide ;P And those tough shots I love to try mostly coming off! Ahh... :D And of course, no gifts! ;)

At 20, the fact I've been a happy bachelor all the way with my only long term infatuation being the game of soccer ( Manchester United just won 2-1!!!) seems to be weird too. Then again, why should I invest time and emotions unless I'm really interested in being with the person? All these stories of getting into a relationship just for the "benefits", like showing off, free sex, yeah sure, not sure its something I'll look back on and say I'm proud of! So nope, I'll take my time on this! Gotta be a decent person out there just waiting to be found right? If there isn't, well so be it! As long as I live by my principles, no regrets!

Of course, there will always be a twinge whenever you see good friends in beautiful relationships, but i guess I must admit that I am still nowhere near mature enough for that anyway! So just sit back, admire them, and only join their ranks when the right one comes!

First Ever Half Marathon!!!

2 Hrs 30 Mins

Or thereabouts XD

Thats how long i took to complete the Marina 21K! What a pleasant surprise! And the fact that i jogged non stop till around 15KM makes it even more of a surprise! Especially when taking into account the fact my max prior to this was a measly 8Km! Add to that the fact I finished ahead of Matt And Jia Han who did train prior to this, and I can say that this was a race where i exceeded all my expectations! To think I started it just hoping to finish within 4 hours!

Pleasant run overall i guess, running at night meant it was nice and cooling, Add to that the uplifting music from Gundam, Nelly Furtado, Hot Shot, Slam Dunk and some other songs i had specially selected, i felt like i could have run all the way were it not for thirst and a cheapskate mentality to not waste the free drinks ;)

Of course what would be a run without kooky participants?

A guy wearing a Singlet with words: "I don't mind you overtaking me now, I'll catch up to you later!" ; a woman with blinking lights on her shoes; a man with a crown of light up sticks...

PFFFFTTT

Life is really boring nowadays. Camp life just gives me a sense of deja vu. Booking in, doing clerk stuff and Sai Kang (geez i just attract this eh? ORBAT Chart, Filing, Cleaning...), then booking out. All the while trying not to let anyone notice me. Grah!

While i have never craved attention, i do seek appreciation. If i finish my stuff, and can be seen slacking, its cos i have earned it! I don't need you to come and say wah slack ah? Nothing to do ah? Worse still, talk back and i lose not just due to rank, but due to bias. ARGH!!! My racial jokes are starting to become less like jokes and more like facts to me, which is a bad sign, after all same ratio in driver course, totally different atmosphere! There, we were one big happy family. Here, unless you smoke/ speak malay, your jokes = you talk too much ( probably cos its in the "wrong" language). Then you have the cheek to say i don't join in?

Haix, at least with most of my own section mates ( mates as in friends not that bullshit mate ie people you stand and smile at while wishing to kick their ass) like Fik, Ful, Shah and Yann, I still can talk to them as friends. The rest? meh

Truth is, most of em ain't that bad, just my luck the influential AKA loud ones are... Empty vessels make the most noise indeed!

Haix I guess first impressions count too... Spilling Oil, being viewed as the Blue Eyed Baby of our MTT who isn't well respected( or liked), coming back from BM course with excuse boots, ah wells no point crying over spilt milk. I'll just SAF ( serve and F off) after all TIA

Being the only Chinese next week is gonna BURN! Ahh as Daughtry says be careful what you wish for, co you just might get it all, and then some you don't want. M^? Tay going to BMT means that its more fair ( based on this thinking i have about fairness and honour which has seriously caused me a lot of trouble and that i need to reduce) but also means meals alone, booking in/out alone... ah wells thank god i ain't that sensitive bout being alone eh?

But being sensitive and liking it is different! I hate being alone( for too long)! having always had small but close friends instead of big groups of friends due to my tendency to feel responsible for them in some way. (ie smaller group less ppl to worry about); as well as being better able to know each and everyone well. ( all the better for suaning)[ all my close friends will experience it, kinda my screwed up way of showing i care{ ie i know these little quirks about you that i can make fun off cos i bother to notice em!!! ;) }] And from the above, my tendency to sidetrack and think too much, pfft getting away from the point now

ANYWAY the gist? Camp life sux, cos i can't talk freely, am a minority that is not really accepted or part of their otherwise very close knit family, and am freaking lonely! All these kill you when you are a mischievous bugger who is forced to keep it all in.

Which kinda makes you think

How many PERSONALITIES can a person have without going Psycho?

I have the Good boy persona many ppl notice when i'm in a weird place, ie quiet, well behaved agreeable

Also the mad man persona when with close friends, ie cheeky, talkative

With certain friends, i can think and discuss stuff quite deeply though once in a while i'll throw in the odd random observation ( just me! ;))

When i see ppl who need more care or need help, the Older Brother personality appears, ie i explain stuff slowly, help, try to make them comfortable

When i see ppl bullying or being an asswipe to others or abusing power( pet peeve) and i'm in a position to sort it out (or not), i juz go in and own them with words or pointing out their actions or flaws in a very personal and sarcastic manner, and let as many ppl know as possible. IE taste of their own medicine X2

When working, i can get super concentrated and not do any frivolous activities at all, which is kinda unlike me.

And yet if i hate what i am tasked to do, the slacker appears. Even so, i will do the task as quickly as possible!

Kinda makes you wonder eh? After all I'm sure I'm not the only one and am as sure that I have more weird personas than those listed above!

Ahh, is this under Psychology? or should i follow my passion and go into sports?


Messed up post eh?


Might as well throw a Rhyme/ Poem in then!



Solo
In Camp
Solo
God damn

Life's a bore
Works a Chore
sitting down weakens my core
while being treated like a whore

What to do
Boo Hoo Hoo
If only i can fling the Poo
Right back at Bur-lahhh-dee you



Yeah Random Shizz alright!

Counting my blessings

Ahh wells, NS NS NS it dominates my time but thankfully not my life. Hmmm does it even make sense?

I guess I gotta be thankful that my parents have seriously relaxed their control on when i can watch matches. Now at least weekends and certain midweeks give me something to look forward to!

Of course, having almost weekly soccer sessions never hurt. I can now claim to be able to dribble past ppl! No mean feat compared to what i was able to do in the past. Of course being kinda forced to play as striker helps. And thankfully i trained my right outside foot. hehe cutting in from the left ala Nani is shiok! means i can shoot with my right foot from the optimum position. Now to work on my crossing on the run

Better yet, no more stress fracture! Bone Scan confirmed it, though i still have stress caused injuries in the region due to my now known wrong gait ( really common actually)
haha benefit? Excuse boots so i can wear my custom insoles that cost 246 bucks! XD
tho i dunno if i really wanna be a clerk till now. BORING!
but being a non smoker doin groundwork and not knowing malay? BORING TOO!
haix

Which brings me to next point: I'm on course now! :D though it ends next week =/
Ahh working in groups, ppl who are friendly and chatty( ORD mood for them really makes ppl so... zen! ) damn i'll miss this when i go back. Hope i get sent out again! Heck I'll even go for driving course encore!

And of course saw CANTONA IN THE FLESH!!! PELE TOO! haha Pele is only my height! Kinda makes me feel bad for using my height as an excuse for my average sporting ability

Ahh nice few days. Long may it continue!

Army Narmy Barmy

Grrr as I finally pass the one year mark in army, it seems like this whole year is just gonna be a drag unless i do something about it. And the something is probably one which i won't enjoy doin (downpes, Chao geng too much etc) Note: I do chao geng, anyone who doesn't is a fool :P But not too much lah!

Camp life is such a drag. Soon to be the only chinese as well as non smoking technician means that unless i miraculously master malay or join in the lung destroying activity, i will probably be stuck solo...

Everyday is just report to camp, do work on some vehicle then juz wait for dismissal... Probably utter less than 6 sentences a day?!?! Geez, guess i shoulda taken up the MO's offer to downpes instead of listen to my darn pride and stayed on in the course! Ah wells, at least i will be trainin myself to work more or less alone and independently yadda yadda eh?

ORD juz can't come soon enough

NS in 2010 Lite version

What a year 2010 has been eh? NS life has been mad, with quite a few unexpected events. After all, how many people can claim to have visited over 10 camps despite not being an MP?

Feb to May: Tekong for BMT with none other than Leopard company!

Followed by Glouchester camp 2 for 3 TPT BN

Next Sembawang camp for stay in during driving; and of course Kaki Bukit camp for driving, with a visit to Nee Soon camp in between when my buddy fell sick at night!

Post OOC, a visit to Glouchester Camp 1 for a YOG related meeting, and a visit to SAFTI MI for SAF day.

After YOG, off to Ayer Raja camp for training at OETI, which shifted to Kranji Camp 3 mid-course. Reporting sick and dental meant visits to Kranji Camp 2.

Completing the course and receiving my next posting at 9AMB, i went to Selarang camp, whereby i was posted to Pasir Ris Camp! Here i thought my journey ended, but what do I know? Apparently we are also supposed to help out at Hendon Camp! So... You know the rest ;)

Haha mad huh?

Not to mention the other random stuff that always seems to happen around me, but always comes in a deluge instead of a steady stream, kinda like Berbatov's goals eh? :)

Here's to 2011 being less of a madcap year eh? Though knowing me for me, you just never know! XD

What I really should get used to doing and really suck at...

No matter how much I try to convince myself, occupy my time, with the right stimulus... It comes back again...

And the fact my record of consecutive matches has been broken doesn't help! ( juz gotta put that in here)