My darkest day

I've been so down,

I've never had such a frown

It is my last day in this town

Yet i see us being ordered around by a bloody clown

I'll miss these guys

These lovers( and haters) of oily fries

Whose tests required so many tries

Cos of you i'm trying not to cry

A new chapter in Army

The organistion manned by Jabroni

Its 2 years too many

That i'm sure you'll all agree

To think that i left gaily

despite the turmoil emotionally

A brave face externally

While i was dying internally

Those photos i took the last two days

I'll cherish forever and always

The times we spent like gays

To you i'll raise a glass of Chardonnay

Juz crazy how this darn thing actually calmed me down more than mindless kicking of walls or screaming did. thanks to a someone, ok actually someone-sssss for helping me rediscover my old hobby of rhyming stuff and hence allow me to release my emotions that i otherwise keep inside and allow to keep eating at myself, till i explode when a big trigger occurs!

Geez i mean, how can a superior hence forth known as Inferior(inf) demand that we return back just because he lost his phone that was indented for him? His problem became our problem juz like that. what's worse is that most of us had just got home or were planning to go out... talk about inconsiderate egoistic Bas^&**. Better still, scolding us to find it instead of staying in the ops room when most of us were already damn pissed. Hello, just because we are forced to serve army for 2 years doesn't mean we are dogs to be ordered around like &^^(ing free labour. Pls slaves get more dignity and respect...

In fact, it is pretty visible how nonsensical this situation is. on the day of my revoc, Inf saw me, ignored me and told someone else to inform me about my revoc, All in front of me! WTF man. so juz cos i'm gonna be leaving means i'm insignificant and not deserving of respect? NVM, maybe it was a bad day due to certain stuff occuring. Fine, i'm training my tolerance.

BUT, on my last day, asking Inf for his signature so i could officially leave the unit, he looked at me like i was a retard and said: you dunno ah, this thing is everone sign le, then you ask me sign one. Got procedure, you dunno ah? Geez, i'm sure i'm an expert on such matters you SOAB. i don't expect any sympathy or even a handshake or a good luck. juz sign it and go. NO! WTF man. In comparison, the other people who needed to authorise it gave no such airs and were at least concerned as to why i'm revocating.

To think Inf gave such a nice impression of himself during my time at HQ. I could see the arrogance though, but i juz shrugged it off. such as when he looked incredulously at me when i claomed i had no laptop or external hard disk. Oh so, everyone is supposed to ahve such stuff in this day and age? well FU understand. You army ppl are SO darn out of touch with the world its pathetic. Honestly, if a real war came? Good luck guys, i'll rather fight alongside a dog. At least it'll be loyal.

Which brings me to the next point, 2 things that i really learned from army?

Do wahtever you want, juz dun get caught. AND

Cover your ass, no matter who you implicate.

Haix, not exactly good things are they?

In reflection though, these were my thoughts when i only had 2 hours of sleep in2 days and was darn emo bout leaving these friends i have made. then agin, the lack of sleep meant i may not be thinking straight, yet it also means i probably have a view that i'm not subconsciously trying to beautify for myself to feel better.

Rant over

Shiokest 2 days!

Haha this YOG lark does have its benefits! Organising all these meetings and reunions are juz so shiok!

Sat was mornin shift thank gawd. so can join Ben, Chang, Swee and WSA for badminton! and wearing that YOG shirt there juz made me a target for jokes ( hey YOG official! hey YOG athelete!) =.= bunch of bastards ;). haha but except WSA i can beat all of em! haha first time i was KING!!! table tennis and soccer is juz their domain, at least i finally found mine :) Then a meal at the round market and a walk to simei and chat :) happy! next target to beat WSA! my smash is now totally lousy... :( haix my racquet isn't the same after restringing! Nooo BLACK DRAGON!!! haha but its still good :)

Sun was hectic
Table tennis at VS at 9 was... FAIL
VS stairs not open in the first place and everyone came late... haix... oh well at least its another meet up!
Then while JC class havin outing... i unknowingly organised a PAE class outing! :P Martin did his usual thing which left me with Cheryl and Wan Zhen. GG lol, one guy and 2 gals. Kena arrow again! Geez, now i'm sec 2 boy... diaoz
haha but i'm the best again! haha gonna get big headed at this rate! my cuz's teaching me badminton juz owns! i think i improve a lot each time i play with him! though i kinda bore him a bit cos he's too good =/
ok damn random liao lol

Oh ya i only had 1 proper meal today T.T skip breakfast to meet up on time, skip lunch to meet them on time, so only had popeyes at 4 plus! geez... and i still ate very slow! haix, what happened to my appetite???

Finally a rant?

Jeez the lack of sleep this few days has caused me to almost snap today...

What's with these old fogeys walkin past and showing their leadership by asking us to do inane stuff when we have completed our tasks and juz wanna relax and do our own stuff? Haix... Jealous of our efficiency or something? Tsk tsk

Then insisting we must send ppl to collect stuff since they are on break. Erm isn't break = break?
When did it become Break Time= lets Break em by asking em to do inane and frankly redundant stuff Time? Lucky most of us are willing to cover each other. though i feel like such a heel for admittin that my friends were playin pooleven if its only to a fellow carpark guy and not a superior ( darn i wanna call em inferiors) then later trying to cover for them and say they were havin lunch! sleep deprived stupidity!!!

And those who juz are plain suck ups... _l_
if you dun wanna help, fine... dun rub it in! i can take it if its in a jokin way, not if its a humour-the-inferior way. Anw its my last few days seeing them...

juz realised that i'll probably lose all my YOG leave too! doubt they will be so nice as to ask my new unit to give me any offs for the weekends burned thanks to YOG.

At least the policemen are nice. regulars and reservist kids( ok adults) alike :) thnks to the sgt for helpin us get fans for our area, unlike the lip service we receive elsewhere >.>

OK rant over. wasn't that pissed to begin with anw, juz... frustrated with how grown men act like kids... As my leopard sgt says : you guys are F^*^ed Up! how can you lead your men liddat?

So far so hmm

With anticipation
Yet trepidation
I am here to serve the nation
To put me as a darn technician
What's it mean about my qualification?
Those long years of education
This is its culmination?
All those years of expensive tuition
I sigh at its ultimate fruition
As army serves to create friction
Using lingo with poor diction
How i wish these were just fiction
A figment of my imagination.


Geez i came up with this lump in 10 minutes? haha how bored and frustrated i was i guess doing carpark duty... Today was just a hmm... shock to the system? Entered the ops room a while and boom! OC walks past, looks at me and tells the seniors that they better dun owe me Off cos i got maintenance course on 30 Aug, revocated as technician... WTF?!?! hmm why din he tell me to my face anw zzz... I was juz erm stunned for i dunno how long before i started askin how izzit.
Verdict? very mixed. My fellow OOCs are jealous, my seniors say good luck, mand most imptly , my cuz says its not too good bar the free sgt rank. is this my reward for ranting about not getting sgt rank when i see ppl who don't deserve it getting it? i dunno. but it sux to have to start makin frens all over again >.< heck, its stay out, so how many friends/ and how much more spending?
oh well watchin united now so continue next time

YEA 3-0!!!

ok now with a better mood lo lolz

Anw carpark ops so far is kinda ok i guess. lots of time to do stuff with not many ppl monitoring you! Depending on the ppl with you, can do shifts so i could go to times and read mags for an hour plus! GUUS ah! Afternoon shift ain't too bad in terms of freedom. playing with the comms and tricking my friend to stay when he could leave... haha James :P guess i still have it! :) only drawback? ventilation is switched off at 7pm so till 11 is kinda stuffy and its 1400 to 2300

mornin shift is more strict i guess, big shots around= cannot fool with comms too but its from 0745 to 1530 or now changed to 0700 to 1500 but can secretly supsoup at 1400 :P

note: supsoup means short sharp and sweet, but can mean leaving, a curse, erm basically its the alternative to F^*& though i probably already used F^*^ a few times already so i dun see why i gotta censor it ;)

On further reflection, this revoc may not be too bad, i hope and stay out means i can follow united properly! oh well hope springs eternal i guess

As for frienDs life wise, its good i guess, all this free time juz made me miss em more; and more able to organise meetings :) Badminton this sat AND sun! first with the dinner club ppl and WSA
then with JC PAE ppl lawl. costs seem ridiculous though. 7.4 per hour? at schools? there better be nets!

YOG ops so far...

Ok, so i guess i kinda overhyped it up for myself. cuz so far its been real slack and easy! though its darn confusing that i am first an ops rm personnel, then a lobby personnel and now a carpark exit dude. =.=lll

Uniforms have also been received. A garish purple tight fit shirt (thank gawd i'm thin) and chino's with a too large waist pouch that will just fit me at the thinnest configuration( maybe cos my waist size actually dropped to 26"?!?( no wonder i'm not a driver, no built in spare tyre :P)) as well as a cap. But the best part? A debit card that also doubles as an ez link card that offers free transport from 10 to 28 Aug! The food vouchers also dun hurt ;) Mac's (yeah!!!) and Koufu (Hmmm....) this is dran important considering how expensive the food around the ritz is! $5 for a wonton mee that tastes great admittedly but is of a puny serving. hiax how to gain weight liddat?

Oh well that's all i guess. hope i din speak too soon. ( I have an unhappy habit of always doing so anw!)


Side stuff:
My appetite is weird nowadays. I either can't finish my food or feel hungry after a meal... Darn it!

jumbled up

Hmm what an interesting week to say the least

On tues, had to go to kranji camp to help load 400++ ammo boxes onto a LARC!!! and some were filled to the brim with sand!! wts xia, thank gawd for the fact there were other guys to help!
" haiyo! so skinny also ask to come help us load ah?!?" LOL at this comment when i was strugggling to load a esp heavy box! and the scorpion that fell out of 1 of the boxes was kinda cool too! reminicise about pri sch days and all that bug catching

best of all, only half day used! so went to catch Inception(Finally!) with Michael. haha kinda funny when u think of 2 guys in smart 4 goin to catch a movie! it was great i guess though overrated in the fact it got 5 stars! more of a 4 i guess

fast forward to fri and both of us went to watch the YOG opening ceremony rehearsal. kinda weird that i got so many 2 guy outings... hiax boys school and a warm up period in jc does that to you...
OK main points: NO GOODIE BAG OR FIREWORKS!!! kinda means no point goin lol. screens which showed blah blah blah video should be playing juz made it 0.o and the atmosphere was flat too lol. pity the emcees. and if the actual is like this? Confrim singapore's 1 and only yog lol

Sat was interesting i guess. Planning a meeting to visit my jc math tutor kinda failed. 1st she wasn't around, then ppl i contacted mostly couldn't turn up!!! haha in the end only me and my PAE classmate met! even so i really enjoyed it ,though felt kinda bad cos i kinda made a promise long ago to ask her along to visit our tuition teacher! Dinner at mos burger whereby i ate less than her! (she finished my fries lol) then a random stroll round all the malls kinda was it. haha can't believe we chatted for so long lol. kinda rare that i will talk so much, though it was mostly NS stuff :P

Sun was almost the same. met her again this time with Darrell. And as usual with ganzik, can't get a word in edgewise! haha he's NS stories and info are so diff to mine! I kinda wonder how she felt cos we were almost always talkin bout ns! i rmb i was interested, then couldn't stand it when my seniors kept doin that last year during our regular outings!!! speaking of which i gotta find time to meet up with em again! our dinner club is goin from weekly to fortnightly to monthly and now randomly but rare events :( But all in all a pleasant meet up. gonna plan a proper one after this YOG thing. gotta get noel along too, then we can really attack ganzik like old times! hehe

now is the jumbled stuff:

Anime or comics i'll complete before ns ends:

Prince of tennis (done)
Inuyahsa(halfway)
Dragonball (kai, Z and original)


My emotions seem more easily swayed now too. watchin A Walk to Remember almost brought a tear to my eye. certain scenes in Inuyasha can make me feel sad. hmm is this maturity? or lack of sleep and that darn chalazion in my eye? hehe juz had to put that chim word in!

And YOG ops starts today!!! OMG OMG OMG better sleep liao lol
hope its slack and not tiring! but m resigned to my weekends being burned which mean s no meetings with frens for a while! :( Argh not to mention a birthday that will prob be busy and unable to celebrate with anyone. Ah well