Ah long journeys and ample free time, they just tend to make you sit back and reflect don't they?
what have i really done this year?
And to be honest? Nothing of note, nothing to really shout about.
NS life now is just sooo blank! Being diagnosed with a double stress fracture will be manna from heaven for some. I tried to console myself with that thought, but just watching people take IPPT and only 1 , yes 1, guy getting silver makes me just wish i could have at least attemped it. Heck, i would give myself a 30% chance to have boosted that tally by 100%! ;) Instead, i had to be content with helping out at a checkpoint and see most people strolling around on the 2.4km run. =.= Ironic that i aggravated this apparently old injury training for IPPT, only to be denied even a shot at it! ARRGGHHH!!!
Visiting the physio and hearing her explain what the X ray meant was kinda scary. My bones were mainly of the soft variety. NOT GOOD. After all, that is how the site of the fracture is. So, in another way, my whole shin is like one big stress injury. Eesh! Looks like i'm gonna have to downpes, which leaves me with boring clerical work, which incidentally involves working with the chao gengs. Not my cup of tea... Ah wells, my health has to come first, especially if i wanna play soccer. Just let me finish my course first, I ain't gonna OOC from this one! And i haven't even mentioned how the therapy has left me feeling pain for 2 days now. And i haven't even done any at home!
And i realise I have been more emo these days too. Sometimes withdrawing into myself. Living in the moment and seemingly dying when there is a lack of stuff to do. Geez... I'm still doing the same stuff, pulling pranks, being mischiebous and all, but it feels just insufficient somehow!
Maybe I'm just lacking something in my life.
